Essential The Mental Health Thread

[Jasonmask]

I feel more cold towards society. I can carry convos and even make jokes and laugh but deep down, I’m still kinda down. Not as bad as earlier in the year though when I last posted here. If I play my cards right, I’ll be happier soon, but I know it can crumble again before me so I should prepare, if shyt goes left again.

Not suicidal, however I don’t really care to live anymore. Not many reasons for me to keep pushing but I keep doing it. All in all though I’m significantly better mentally. Still need to see Another therapist to get my dark evil thoughts out.

 

[Pazzy]

I feel more cold towards society. I can carry convos and even make jokes and laugh but deep down, I’m still kinda down. Not as bad as earlier in the year though when I last posted here. If I play my cards right, I’ll be happier soon, but I know it can crumble again before me so I should prepare, if shyt goes left again.

Not suicidal, however I don’t really care to live anymore. Not many reasons for me to keep pushing but I keep doing it. All in all though I’m significantly better mentally. Still need to see Another therapist to get my dark evil thoughts out.

Sorry to hear that youre in that place, fam. do get help though. Youre going in the right direction.

Unfortunately for me, ive been at what youre describing too many times to count and right now, im like fukk it. Yall know what it is. Im just gonna keep on being strong and try to be optimistic despite losing hope over time. Sometimes the only thing that has kept me alive was hope because i just didnt have it in me. My fear of death wasnt there if you know what im saying because i was at that point. Growing up and etc, i was one of those "at risk" children and it still seems to be the same in adulthood except i constantly have to keep myself in check and be aware because even though, im not taking out my anger on other people physically, my anger and emotions are fukking me up physically.

Hell... i dont even like interacting with people because im afraid that i might be reminded about my life. Ill admit, im not that open when it comes to my life and myself to a lot of people because i dont know how to interact with people, i guess and from the way people respond to me, i dont know...

I just keep myself busy despite being functionally depressed and i have a real difficult time in getting out my emotions despite feeling those shyts heavy i wish this shyt on no one.

Get well, dude.

 

[Pazzy]

On separate note, im starting to think that i have a problem with paying attention. When i try to focus onto something like reading a book or watch a show sometimes, i cant keep my focus on that shyt. My attention goes elsewhere and i notice that i have to take breaks because i find myself getting irritated or distracted, thinking about other shyt. Ive always had this problem to be honest but ive noticed it considerably getting worse over time.

Thats why i usually stop with shyt and have a hard time going back to it to complete it like reading books. shyt gets overwhelming that i just stop and take months or even years to go back to it or dont go back to finishing the shyt sometimes.

 

[xoxodede]

I was just diagnosed focal myoclonus--and my neurologist suspects MS. I have three MRIs and a EEG scheduled.

I'm scared cause it came out of no where. I'm guessing it's from my paternal side, since that's the side I know least medically about.

But, I am also worried about all these new drugs I'm being prescribed.

Was prescribed Zonisamide and Klonopin.

I heard Klonopin makes you gain hella weight- I'm very weight conscious and sadly.... vain.

Any experiences, with weight gain on Klonopin?

 

[Yinny]

Some of y’all need to deal with your obvious alcoholism free game, you be talking too much

 

[Mandarin Duck]

Does anybody know of any good free apps to have conversations with people about mental health?

 

[Mandarin Duck]

Idk why I haven't used this thread before.

Anybody have like an anxiety tic/motto?

I'm not even sure how to explain it but whenever I experience a big wave of anxiety coming over me, I say very horrible things to myself, about myself.

If I'm at the store and experience anxiety thoughts of

"I hope I die soon"
"Kill yourself you fukking loser"
"If you died nobody would care"

I'm at a point of catching myself when it happens and trying to block those thoughts with something else. Not necessarily positivity, but just an acknowledgement of me having those thoughts, and focusing on something else instead.

 

[letti cook]

Idk why I haven't used this thread before.

Anybody have like an anxiety tic/motto?

I'm not even sure how to explain it but whenever I experience a big wave of anxiety coming over me, I say very horrible things to myself, about myself.

If I'm at the store and experience anxiety thoughts of

"I hope I die soon"
"Kill yourself you fukking loser"
"If you died nobody would care"

I'm at a point of catching myself when it happens and trying to block those thoughts with something else. Not necessarily positivity, but just an acknowledgement of me having those thoughts, and focusing on something else instead.

YES!!!

I call it suicidal tourettes

it always happens to me after I have extended social interactions which isn't often

so, if I hang out with friends or something....for about a week after that my mind just overthinks everything I said/did...then shytty memories and traumas start playing on loop ...and I end up saying outloud, "you're a piece of shyt, just kill yourself" or something like that multiple times a day...I try to "change the channel" if I can catch it in time but it makes it difficult for me to agree to do anything social because I know I'm going to have to deal with that later.

i just put off going home for thanksgiving because of that....being around family is a real bad trigger for me and I cant deal with that right now.

i'm really struggling with that decision but i also feel like they dont really give a shyt if I come up anyway..so..whatever

 

[Pazzy]

I was just diagnosed focal myoclonus--and my neurologist suspects MS. I have three MRIs and a EEG scheduled.

I'm scared cause it came out of no where. I'm guessing it's from my paternal side, since that's the side I know least medically about.

But, I am also worried about all these new drugs I'm being prescribed.

Was prescribed Zonisamide and Klonopin.

I heard Klonopin makes you gain hella weight- I'm very weight conscious and sadly.... vain.

Any experiences, with weight gain on Klonopin?

Sorry to hear that. Hope you dont have ms. When will you find out?

 

[Pazzy]

Idk why I haven't used this thread before.

Anybody have like an anxiety tic/motto?

I'm not even sure how to explain it but whenever I experience a big wave of anxiety coming over me, I say very horrible things to myself, about myself.

If I'm at the store and experience anxiety thoughts of

"I hope I die soon"
"Kill yourself you fukking loser"
"If you died nobody would care"

I'm at a point of catching myself when it happens and trying to block those thoughts with something else. Not necessarily positivity, but just an acknowledgement of me having those thoughts, and focusing on something else instead.

All the time. Its either that where i have self hating and self destructive thoughts or im feeling myself on some cocky shyt where im telling myself to be humble even though . Im trying to find the balance that they call confidence.

 

[Mandarin Duck]

YES!!!

I call it suicidal tourettes

it always happens to me after I have extended social interactions which isn't often

so, if I hang out with friends or something....for about a week after that my mind just overthinks everything I said/did...then shytty memories and traumas start playing on loop ...and I end up saying outloud, "you're a piece of shyt, just kill yourself" or something like that multiple times a day...I try to "change the channel" if I can catch it in time but it makes it difficult for me to agree to do anything social because I know I'm going to have to deal with that later.

i just put off going home for thanksgiving because of that....being around family is a real bad trigger for me and I cant deal with that right now.

i'm really struggling with that decision but i also feel like they dont really give a shyt if I come up anyway..so..whatever

All the time. Its either that where i have self hating and self destructive thoughts or im feeling myself on some cocky shyt where im telling myself to be humble even though . Im trying to find the balance that they call confidence.

Have either of you ever taken medication for this or any of the mental health issues you deal with and did they work?

 

[Mandarin Duck]

I took my niece out to dinner for her birthday and I think she had a great time. We had a great conversation and on my way home I felt so good it felt like I was high.

I've been doing coke to feel numb to pain and run away from emotions for so long I've forgotten what happiness while sober feels like.

 

[Pedro Negro]

Does anybody know of any good free apps to have conversations with people about mental health?

Talkspace

 

[Capitol]

I haven't contemplated suicide in awhile. Been busy and its hard to manage because I never had to juggle so much before but at the same time it's good. Its nice to want to do things and have things to do instead of feeling like everything is a drag. My sleep is still terrible but I'm grateful for a lot of other things. I'm trying to keep finding love within myself and spread it when I can.

 

[Coolin']

I haven't contemplated suicide in awhile. Been busy and its hard to manage because I never had to juggle so much before but at the same time it's good. Its nice to want to do things and have things to do instead of feeling like everything is a drag. My sleep is still terrible but I'm grateful for a lot of other things. I'm trying to keep finding love within myself and spread it when I can.

i don’t want to be disrespectful but what made you want to do it, to begin with?