Essential The Mental Health Thread

[Mandarin Duck]

i don’t want to be disrespectful but what made you want to do it, to begin with?

For some reason I got a notification that you quoted me? I'm not sure why.

 

[Capitol]

i don’t want to be disrespectful but what made you want to do it, to begin with?

For as long as I can remember it was a lingering thought in my mind. Sometimes I entertained it more than others. I used to just feel like I was taking up space. I hated having to feel emotions, interact with people, and constantly do things. I used to be really into watching and reading about people that were heavily successful and wished I could just observe everything without having to be an actual human being because I felt like I had already irredeemable fukked up and I couldn't reach their heights anyway

 

[Canada Goose]

I ran out of one of the three medications I take for my various mental illnesses, and now I can't sleep I realize that I'm dependent on this particular medication to fall sleep even though that's not it's intended purpose, and I take it in the morning (its sedating)


It's really annoying as my asleep cycle is all messed up, I don't fall asleep until 1:30 - 2:00AM when I usually fall asleep between 11PM - Midnight.


Also one of the worst side effects of these meds is the dreaming/nightmares. I mean am I gonna have wild dreams every night for the rest of my life while I'm on these meds?


I tried laying down in pitch black for the past hour, no luck

 

[Canada Goose]

Idk why I haven't used this thread before.

Anybody have like an anxiety tic/motto?

I'm not even sure how to explain it but whenever I experience a big wave of anxiety coming over me, I say very horrible things to myself, about myself.

If I'm at the store and experience anxiety thoughts of

"I hope I die soon"
"Kill yourself you fukking loser"
"If you died nobody would care"

I'm at a point of catching myself when it happens and trying to block those thoughts with something else. Not necessarily positivity, but just an acknowledgement of me having those thoughts, and focusing on something else instead.

This sounds like schizophrenia or intrusive thoughts.
I have the same problem with hearing voices when I did think I took an L of some sorts.

YES!!!

I call it suicidal tourettes

it always happens to me after I have extended social interactions which isn't often

so, if I hang out with friends or something....for about a week after that my mind just overthinks everything I said/did...then shytty memories and traumas start playing on loop ...and I end up saying outloud, "you're a piece of shyt, just kill yourself" or something like that multiple times a day...I try to "change the channel" if I can catch it in time but it makes it difficult for me to agree to do anything social because I know I'm going to have to deal with that later.

i just put off going home for thanksgiving because of that....being around family is a real bad trigger for me and I cant deal with that right now.

i'm really struggling with that decision but i also feel like they dont really give a shyt if I come up anyway..so..whatever

Yeah, I second guess social interactions I have all the time, even minor ones like small talk with a cashier or even ordering food at an takeout restaurant. Constantly going over it in my head repeating things such as I hate myself (personality traits, not race) or repeating I messed up. It sucks

 

[OnlyOneBoss]

Been going through a lil rough patch recently brehs won’t lie


Ain’t been in the gym in a couple weeks, grades slippin (think I’ll just take next semester off fr), been drinking and smoking weed excessively


Been abusing DoorDash


Goin to see my grandpa in the hospital for Thanksgiving no bs brehs might be last time I see him. shyt hurt since I’m all the way on the other side of the country but it’s the price I pay



Also been very carefree with my sex life since I broke up with my long term girlfriend. If you find yourself wanting a lot more sex and taking more risks sexually than I’m just sayin there might be an underlying problem brehs




I think after I see my fam again and tie up a couple loose ends shyt will start lookin up for me…only problem is finding the motivation to tie up those ends

 

[Mandarin Duck]

I told my nephew he can come to my house today at 5:30 to do chores.

I pulled up around 5:40 and when I got there he says:

"My mom thought you forgot, but I told her no, Uncle Duck doesn't forget anything. He'll be here."

That meant something to me.

Knowing that he knows I'll never forget about him, even moreso than his own mother does.

shyt like that helps me keep going.

 

[Slic Ric]

Anyone on SSRI in here? Zoloft, Lexpro.etc

 

[Rozay Oro]

First of all I want to say yesterday was my first day at a new job. Will be up in a few hours for day two. Very excited about that.

I really want to be happy with myself. I try to treat myself well and shyt. I want to learn to stop valuing my worth with how successful I am with women, my relationship status and stop comparing myself with others.

 

[Michael's Black Son]

Larry June said if he chased hoes he’d probably be broke.

Run your own race breh. fukk what anyone has to say or has going on.

 

[Family Lives Matter]

Go therapy this site can't help you

 

[Joe Budden]

Get yourself a fat unattractive white woman. She will make you feel like a king. All the shyt you feeling now will go away. Seriously.

 

[Pazzy]

Go therapy this site can't help you

This.

Self worth goes about how you treat and view yourself. Start by listening to yourself speak. Pay attention and hear what you say about yourself and what you say about other people.

You have to treat yourself right. Exercise, eat healthy, spend time with your thoughts, spend time with yourself until you feel uncomfortable. Basically you gotta work on you.

 

[Rozay Oro]

Get yourself a fat unattractive white woman. She will make you feel like a king. All the shyt you feeling now will go away. Seriously.

No breh. That’s not too far away from physical self harm in my eyes.

 

[Joe Budden]

No breh. That’s not too far away from physical self harm in my eyes.

I’m sorry. I’d try therapy like the other poster suggested. I’ve been going to therapy every week and it’s done wonders. Made it easier to focus on my goals.

Every week I get to meet with my therapist and discuss my progress and how I can do continue to do better.

I’m also on meds as well.

 

[Rawtid]

Congratulations on the job Work on developing good, healthy and consistent habits. The better you move, the better energy life brings you and the better you feel about yourself.

It will take some work, so don’t be hard on yourself if you don’t figure it all out today. Being honest about your feelings is good as well because you can identify triggers.