Essential The Mental Health Thread

[98Ntu]

I'm not gonna do anything that can harm myself or anyone else.

I pushed carts at Wal-Mart.

As far as IQ goes, I just don't get things as fast, forgetful, etc. I'm positive I have a Low IQ.

I realize I have to live the rest of my life like this, it's just saddening.

I empathize with you breh and I’m sorry if you felt I was insinuating if you’re gonna hurt yourself or anybody. I’ve seen your posts. You seem sensitive and thoughtful. You seem like a solid dude.

I’m sorry you’re suffering. What do you think would lift your spirits or turn your situation around? I deal with chronic depression, manic episodes, dissociation and psychosis as a result of schizoaffective disorder. I too, will have to live with a struggle for the rest of my life. A lifelong struggle doesn’t have to be a death sentence. Again, you sound like you are a deep thinker with a good heart. Perhaps things can change.

 

[98Ntu]

I feel like I’m not doing enough in life. Feels meaningless to me, pretty much feel like a complete loser. Chronic underachiever. I could be gone tomorrow and no one would give a fukk. Feel like I missed my chance to make a mark.

Idk anymore.

How old are you/what age range are you in? What do you wanna do with your life? It’s never too late to create a meaningful life.

I also struggle with feeling like life is meaningless. Life can be very lonely and painful. It can be heavy but there can be bright chapters

 

[96Blue]

I empathize with you breh and I’m sorry if you felt I was insinuating if you’re gonna hurt yourself or anybody. I’ve seen your posts. You seem sensitive and thoughtful. You seem like a solid dude.

I’m sorry you’re suffering. What do you think would lift your spirits or turn your situation around? I deal with chronic depression, manic episodes, dissociation and psychosis as a result of schizoaffective disorder. I too, will have to live with a struggle for the rest of my life. A lifelong struggle doesn’t have to be a death sentence. Again, you sound like you are a deep thinker with a good heart. Perhaps things can change.

I don't know what would personally bring my spirits up, I haven't been happy in... A long time, I'm talking years.

 

[98Ntu]

I don't know what would personally bring my spirits up, I haven't been happy in... A long time, I'm talking years.

Do you think talking to a counselor would help? Do you have a support network? Anyone you can really vent/talk to?

And I empathize with the feeling of chronic unhappiness. I was suicidal every day for an eight year period through high school and college. It’s hard to overcome such deep pain.

 

[96Blue]

Do you think talking to a counselor would help? Do you have a support network? Anyone you can really vent/talk to?

And I empathize with the feeling of chronic unhappiness. I was suicidal every day for an eight year period through high school and college. It’s hard to overcome such deep pain.

Last time I tried to talk to a therapist it didn't work out. None of my problems were addressed. I was subscribed medicine and would just pop up to check-in.

 

[98Ntu]

Last time I tried to talk to a therapist it didn't work out. None of my problems were addressed. I was subscribed medicine and would just pop up to check-in.

Therapists are hit or miss. I personally don’t enjoy therapy but it can be useful to some people.

I’m sorry they blew you off fam. Mental health services in America can truly suck. I’ve been blown off several times. It’s disheartening. What problems did you feel weren’t addressed if you don’t mind me asking? (No need to share if you don’t want to. You could PM me if that interests you, but no pressure)

 

[King]

How old are you/what age range are you in? What do you wanna do with your life? It’s never too late to create a meaningful life.

I also struggle with feeling like life is meaningless. Life can be very lonely and painful. It can be heavy but there can be bright chapters

I’m 23, graduated from college last year and got nothing out of it but a useless degree and exhausted financial aid.

I tried to pave my own way until I came to the realization that this system is rigged. People I graduated with went onto make 300k plus because they have connections and had good parents and shyt.

Hundreds of applications, no offers. Now it’s to the point where I can’t even apply to most entry roles because I’m not a 2021 grad. Even when I did make it to the interview I could tell the shyt was to mark a quota since I put black on my application. Even had someone I interviewed with send me a rejection letter not 30 seconds after I finished the call, feel guilty and message me on LinkedIn just to tell me that I wasn’t a good fit.

I don’t even want a job tbh, I just recognize that I need money to live. I basically have nothing rn, no friends, living at home, no plans, no goals.

My day consists of waking up staring at the ceiling, going to the gym, staring at my phone, and sleeping. Sometimes my whole goal when I wake up to go to sleep. When I interact with people they don’t even notice I’m there most times, people feel like they can disrespect me.

I don’t see a way out of this system, I understand my entire position in life conceptually on a multifaceted level as a a black man in this country.

I just wanna be important and recognized, have the freedom to do what I want. The women, money, etc. I feel like I’m an NPC. I wanna live the life - international playboy shyt. Like a famous actor, musician, guy who knows everyone and has the money to do what he wants, etc.

But right now I got nothing, I don’t even have a vision of where I could end up. I just brick walls in every direction.

 

[98Ntu]

I’m 23, graduated from college and got nothing out of it but a useless degree and exhausted financial aid.

I tried to pave my own way until I came to the realization that this system is rigged. People I graduated with went onto make 300k plus because they have connections and had good parents and shyt.

Hundreds of applications, no offers. Now it’s to the point where I can’t even apply to most entry roles because I’m not a 2021 grad.

I don’t even want a job tbh, I just recognize that I need money to live. I basically have nothing rn, no friends, living at home, no plans, no goals.

My day consists of waking up staring at the ceiling, going to the gym, staring at my phone, and sleeping. Sometimes my whole goal when I wake up to go to sleep. When I interact with people they don’t even notice I’m there most times, people feel like they can disrespect me.

I don’t see a way out of this system, I understand my entire position in life conceptually on a multifaceted level as a a black man in this country.

I just wanna be important and recognized, have the freedom to do what I want. The women, money, etc. I feel like I’m an NPC. I wanna live the life - international playboy shyt. Like a famous actor, musician, guy who knows everyone and has the money to do what he wants, etc.

My guy it’s crazy. I’m 23 too. Also I’m from Zimbabwe btw lol. Funny shyt. And I also got a degree in something largely useless (Professional Communication and Media Studies). And I’m in debt about 20,000 bucks. It’s crazy.

I have applied to about 100 or so jobs since August 2020 (when I officially graduated). I have been doing odd job since then. No one wants to hire me.

I also got no real friends and no real trajectory rn. I’ve been at home with Moms since November. Life is stagnant but I haven’t given up yet.

I also want freedom. I also want total ownership of my time. I want a good life. I am trying to find a way to monetize my voice and thoughts. I am trying to figure things out in a practical fashion. What do you really want to do with your life? Music? Making Art?

 

[King]

My guy it’s crazy. I’m 23 too. Also I’m from Zimbabwe btw lol. Funny shyt. And I also got a degree in something largely useless (Professional Communication and Media Studies). And I’m in debt about 20,000 bucks. It’s crazy.

I have applied to about 100 or so jobs since August 2020 (when I officially graduated). I have been doing odd job since then. No one wants to hire me.

I also got no real friends and no real trajectory rn. I’ve been at home with Moms since November. Life is stagnant but I haven’t given up yet.

I also want freedom. I also want total ownership of my time. I want a good life. I am trying to find a way to monetize my voice and thoughts. I am trying to figure things out in a practical fashion. What do you really want to do with your life? Music? Making Art?

That’s crazy, I’m not Zimbabwean tho it’s just a username. They’re really not trying to hire us, unless you have connections or did internships in college they see us as nothing. I knew a CEO dude of a small tech company who told me there’s no path for people in our position- said we just gotta pave our own way somehow.

Yeah idk what I want to do honestly, if I had it my way I would’ve invested in Bitcoin in 2009 and would’ve retired a multi billionaire by now.

I can say first and foremost that I want to be financially free - I don’t want to be exploited by this current economic system.

I can also say that I want to have a lot of women in my life. Like really attractive ones who have shyt going for them and can provide for me. I’m basing this off two dudes I’ve seen. One is an “Onlyfans Manager” who is financially free bc his girlfriends pay him. Another is a dude who go in to the club scene really early and is pretty much a millionaire now and is connected to virtually every IG thot so they fly him out, wine and dine him, and he gets the star treatment at any high end venue pretty much every day.

I also wanna travel and just experience life.

In terms of things I see myself doing I have no idea. I really have no idea. I know what I want. I just don’t know what I want to do.

 

[98Ntu]

That’s crazy, I’m not Zimbabwean tho it’s just a username. They’re really not trying to hire us, unless you have connections or did internships in college they see us as nothing. I knew a CEO dude of a small tech company who told me there’s no path for people in our position- said we just gotta pave our own way somehow.

Yeah idk what I want to do honestly, if I had it my way I would’ve invested in Bitcoin in 2009 and would’ve retired a multi billionaire by now.

I can say first and foremost that I want to be financially free - I don’t want to be exploited by this current economic system.

I can also say that I want to have a lot of women in my life. Like really attractive ones who have shyt going for them and can provide for me. I’m basing this off two dudes I’ve seen. One is an “Onlyfans Manager” who is financially free bc his girlfriends pay him. Another is a dude who go in to the club scene really early and is pretty much a millionaire now and is connected to virtually every IG thot so they fly him out, wine and dine him, and he gets the star treatment at any high end venue pretty much every day.

I also wanna travel and just experience life.

In terms of things I see myself doing I have no idea. I really have no idea. I know what I want. I just don’t know what I want to do.

You’re right about a lot breh. Cats like us need to make our own path. Are you African Americam/ADOS? It’s hard out here for a brother anyhow. I really am starting to see that. Any idealism I had about the world is gone. The racism is tough. No one gives a fukk about your feelings either.

The bit you said about financial freedom is powerful. This system fukks over so many people. It’s not fair. You have to outsmart in some way.

I also hear you about traveling and being around lots of women. I’ll keep you in my thoughts breh. There’s got to be a way for brehs like us to make it big. Let’s keep talking.

 

[BK The Great]

Sometimes i feel like the people i know act like i don't exist, that shyt can fukk with your mind sometimes and it is a fukked up feeling feeling misunderstood. I think i might have some type of anxiety but i tend to keep myself busy with playing basketball, music, cooking, and trying to build something for my future. I'm thankful i don't drink, do drugs or smoke so i keep active like taking long walks, bike rides to relieve the stress. It's a mental bender to stay on that road but it's good to try and keep a positive head on your shoulders. One thing everyone should know is that we are all going thru something, more so with this pandemic that seems like it's never gonna end. Just try to keep a positive mind set, make sure to take care of your well being, and you'll see the days will get better.

 

[Coolin']

How do therapists help if they don’t have the same struggles as you?

 

[96Blue]

Therapists are hit or miss. I personally don’t enjoy therapy but it can be useful to some people.

I’m sorry they blew you off fam. Mental health services in America can truly suck. I’ve been blown off several times. It’s disheartening. What problems did you feel weren’t addressed if you don’t mind me asking? (No need to share if you don’t want to. You could PM me if that interests you, but no pressure)

Nah, it's no problem, I'll say it right here. My therapist diagnosed me with bipolar, but didn't give me anything for it. I told her my ADHD was a problem, she said "let's work on your anxiety first" and we never got around to addressing those issues.

 

[96Blue]

Kind of a personal question, but how can I be more masculine?

I used to fight a lot when I was a kid and didn't have any fight or flight responses or anything, I used to take a lot of fades, but as I've gotten older, fight or flight has taken over, Brehs.

It's to a point where I avoid confrontation even though confrontation is a good thing because I don't want mufuggas thinking they can say whatever or do whatever to me or around me and I will just be okay with it.

And I'm not trying to fight the whole world or every man that chooses to say something to me, but I should always be ready for it, if it gets to that.

 

[98Ntu]

Nah, it's no problem, I'll say it right here. My therapist diagnosed me with bipolar, but didn't give me anything for it. I told her my ADHD was a problem, she said "let's work on your anxiety first" and we never got around to addressing those issues.

Hey breh, I’m so sorry that they put you to the side like that. Bipolar is serious. That needs to be addressed along with the anxiety and ADHD. How do you cope?

And to answer your question about masculinity: being a man is about being comfortable within yourself as you strive to be the best with each day. Great men have drive, passion, grace, empathy, courage and humility. How can you maximize those qualities in yourself?

And reading into your post more: do you feel like people respect you? Do you feel understood?