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Rhyme n Tekniq

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I think the next phase of my life I need to go above and beyond to be on some positive shyt from here on out. I'm gonna fukk around and kill somebody if I dont.
Between the shyt going on with my family, being on this mostly toxic forum and seeing how people all across social media are using DMX's passing as a prop for clout and prematurely putting them bad vibes in ther air...just all of it

I'm spiritually spent, and my faithin humanity in general is just becoming some nihilistic, misanthropic shyt, and I dont know how much I can take dealing with sociopaths and narcissist on the daily before I fukk around and snuff somebody out off pure impulse over some fukk shyt they did or said.

I think it's better that I unplug, recalibrate spirtually and go outside and get some fresh air. Leave this internet/social media shyt alone for a while possibly indefinitely. I just need to catch myself while I still have a sound mind because my hatred for the average person is draining me.
 

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My anger and hatred of life are deep. I abhor the world and all that it is.

My close relative is struggling with depression, anxiety and c-ptsd. I can’t bear to see her suffer. I wish I could take away her pain. I wish I could hold her and make the pain go away. Existence is a burden.

It’s one thing to suffer. It’s another to see someone you love suffer in a deep and intense way. This is earth is a fallen, dark and hideous thing. Sorry for being so negative. Just needed to vent.
 

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I think the next phase of my life I need to go above and beyond to be on some positive shyt from here on out. I'm gonna fukk around and kill somebody if I dont.
Between the shyt going on with my family, being on this mostly toxic forum and seeing how people all across social media are using DMX's passing as a prop for clout and prematurely putting them bad vibes in ther air...just all of it

I'm spiritually spent, and my faithin humanity in general is just becoming some nihilistic, misanthropic shyt, and I dont know how much I can take dealing with sociopaths and narcissist on the daily before I fukk around and snuff somebody out off pure impulse over some fukk shyt they did or said.

I think it's better that I unplug, recalibrate spirtually and go outside and get some fresh air. Leave this internet/social media shyt alone for a while possibly indefinitely. I just need to catch myself while I still have a sound mind because my hatred for the average person is draining me.

This resonated with me deeply. I’m also spent in my spirituality and in my love. I’m a dark and hollow man now. I don’t care anymore .I’m not gonna hurt anybody but I wouldn’t mind seeing it all burn down and fade away. It’s worthless to me.

I hope you’re well breh. Don’t let anger or this internet shyt drive you mad. I hope the positivity shyt works for you. Bless you on this next chapter
 

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This resonated with me deeply. I’m also spent in my spirituality and in my love. I’m a dark and hollow man now. I don’t care anymore .I’m not gonna hurt anybody but I wouldn’t mind seeing it all burn down and fade away. It’s worthless to me.

I hope you’re well breh. Don’t let anger or this internet shyt drive you mad. I hope the positivity shyt works for you. Bless you on this next chapter
I'm good breh, appreciate it

I had to retreat to within my self instead of allowing the objective ugliness of human society to keep penetrating my subconcious. I've been at peace with the ultimate truth that for most of humanity, all that horrible evil, vain shyt is the rule not the exception which is what makes people who are NOT that way precious. In fact anything that can bring you joy without the pitfalls of addiction is precious in this world.

Like I said, I've made peace with the shytiness that is the bulk of human nature. Most people operate from a place, of vanity, jealousy, desperation, guilt, insecurity, or greed. So the end result isnt suprising. I just get overwhelmed once in a while when I allow that ugliness to creep back into my subconcious from consuming social media or just being around alot of people in general.

It's just one of those times in my life where im getting a much needed refresher course in how people aint shyt. When reality and my optimism clash, This is the end result.

I'm built for this shyt TBH. People like us believe we are cursed at times because the people around us seem so insufferable. The average person carries alot of baggage, alot of vile, nasty, toxic shyt; and it's them who are the cursed ones, the ones who need guidance because they are trapped in an endless cycle of self induced misery. Just be thankful you posses the wherewithal to navigate through life and avoid most of the bullshyt. When you think, feel, speak and act exceptionally, you will find yourself in the minority most of the time.

one last thing,

As much as you and I think life can suck at times, imagine how it must be to be a mindless lemming; a slave to every impulse, riding the currents as it carries you from 1 bad life decision to the next until the day you die. shyt aint all bad. Knowledge is a gift and a curse. The ability to think critically, and calculate your moves is a luxury most will never know. Be thankful. Be thankful.
 

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Yea, I take it back, I think I without a doubt do have a Low IQ.

:snoop::mjcry:

This shyt is just so sad, I quit my job on the 25th of last month and I'm afraid to get another one. All of my bosses treated me like shyt and would talk down to me, not knowing of my learning disability. I fukking hate people.



 

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Damn, I'm depressed, stressed, and exhausted.

I've had a crick in my neck going on 2 weeks now, failed my driver's test twice, quit my job, low IQ/ADHD seems to be getting more difficult, body twitches from anxiety are still happening, etc.

I'm 5'5 in height, I'm tired and I don't even do shyt the whole day and I have no skills.

:mjcry:
 

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Damn, I'm depressed, stressed, and exhausted.

I've had a crick in my neck going on 2 weeks now, failed my driver's test twice, quit my job, low IQ/ADHD seems to be getting more difficult, body twitches from anxiety are still happening, etc.

I'm 5'5 in height, I'm tired and I don't even do shyt the whole day and I have no skills.

:mjcry:

From this post and the last one, you sound mad depressed and defeated breh. I’m sorry your bosses treat you like shyt and I’m sorry you’re in physical and emotional pain.

Three Questions:
What did you do for work or what field did you work in?
Why do you think you have a low IQ?
Is there anything that takes the edge off?
 

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From this post and the last one, you sound mad depressed and defeated breh. I’m sorry your bosses treat you like shyt and I’m sorry you’re in physical and emotional pain.

Three Questions:
What did you do for work or what field did you work in?
Why do you think you have a low IQ?
Is there anything that takes the edge off?
I'm not gonna do anything that can harm myself or anyone else.

I pushed carts at Wal-Mart.

As far as IQ goes, I just don't get things as fast, forgetful, etc. I'm positive I have a Low IQ.

I realize I have to live the rest of my life like this, it's just saddening.
 

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I feel like I’m not doing enough in life. Feels meaningless to me, pretty much feel like a complete loser. Chronic underachiever. I could be gone tomorrow and no one would give a fukk. Feel like I missed my chance to make a mark.

Idk anymore.
 
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