This resonated with me deeply. I’m also spent in my spirituality and in my love. I’m a dark and hollow man now. I don’t care anymore .I’m not gonna hurt anybody but I wouldn’t mind seeing it all burn down and fade away. It’s worthless to me.
I hope you’re well breh. Don’t let anger or this internet shyt drive you mad. I hope the positivity shyt works for you. Bless you on this next chapter
I'm good breh, appreciate it
I had to retreat to within my self instead of allowing the objective ugliness of human society to keep penetrating my subconcious. I've been at peace with the ultimate truth that for most of humanity, all that horrible evil, vain shyt is the rule not the exception which is what makes people who are NOT that way precious. In fact anything that can bring you joy without the pitfalls of addiction is precious in this world.
Like I said, I've made peace with the shytiness that is the bulk of human nature. Most people operate from a place, of vanity, jealousy, desperation, guilt, insecurity, or greed. So the end result isnt suprising. I just get overwhelmed once in a while when I allow that ugliness to creep back into my subconcious from consuming social media or just being around alot of people in general.
It's just one of those times in my life where im getting a much needed refresher course in how people aint shyt. When reality and my optimism clash, This is the end result.
I'm built for this shyt TBH. People like us believe we are cursed at times because the people around us seem so insufferable. The average person carries alot of baggage, alot of vile, nasty, toxic shyt; and it's them who are the cursed ones, the ones who need guidance because they are trapped in an endless cycle of self induced misery. Just be thankful you posses the wherewithal to navigate through life and avoid most of the bullshyt. When you think, feel, speak and act exceptionally, you will find yourself in the minority most of the time.
one last thing,
As much as you and I think life can suck at times, imagine how it must be to be a mindless lemming; a slave to every impulse, riding the currents as it carries you from 1 bad life decision to the next until the day you die. shyt aint all bad. Knowledge is a gift and a curse. The ability to think critically, and calculate your moves is a luxury most will never know. Be thankful. Be thankful.