some people can manage, others can’t. I was down bad on that shyt for a good year with occasional relapses. Couldn’t nobody tell me shyt until I wanted to hear it, and hiding it makes you that much more secretive about your habits. That shyt fukks with your mind and makes you think you can manage, and you might for a while but it’s a Catch 22 because that just leads to you doing more while with this face
I think also a problem is we think you sniff some coke and you might die right there. But when you first try it and you realize that you can still function on it then that’s where the danger comes in. Even though it’s a relatively short high, you feel the effects of it for hours after you finish your session. I’ve sat in staff meetings geeked, drove, done essential functions and all of that. I didn’t think others would notice but that is the coke giving overconfidence. Not to mention if you have depression issues, the come down can make you spiral. It’s hard because sometimes even though I’ve been clean over a year I’ll still have dreams back to fukking random bytches with powder all on our nose, to thoughts trying to rationalize the demon. I purposely choose not to chill with people I know who are on the bag, friends, men, or my women who are exes. Sometimes saying no to the temptation is east and sometimes they get you with that, it’s just one bump logic. I don’t even chill with people who sell it, and I got family who sells both white and green but they respect me enough not to bring that devil shyt around me.
and chances are if you will snort it, then you might sprinkle some in a blunt or a cigarette. When you are geeked you are not the most cognizant person and sure won’t be turning too much of anything offered to you.
This is not something I’m proud and I’m only talking about it to educate and maybe keep folks from experimenting. There is no casual cocaine use
