I owned a small consulting firm before and was well off. No kids, no debt, absolutely no overhead whatsoever. I was a business finance major and honestly, just really good with money since I was a kid.
Long story short, only maybe a couple people from
may remember but I got locked up and lost alot. When I came home I, got involved in non profit organizations for substance abuse patients because my fiance was killed in a DUI and I caught my case on dude. I thought that if someone was there to really dedicate themselves to helping, perhaps he wouldnt have gotten behind the wheel and killed someone else and maybe I can save someone's family from having to lose a mother, wife, daughter etc.
Social work pays shyt, and i have been basically living off my savings from 2007 these past couple years making shyt money, for shyt organizations. This last one im affiliated with is the last straw. My boss, the executive director/owner, is only in it for money. Not to help, not to make a difference...just money. And thats a slap in my face because of all the money ive sacrificed making by being employed in this field and by him specifically. IMO, social services is not a field you get into to be financially successful. Gainfully employed, yes. But successful? No. Flies in the face of what youre trying to accomplish because then its about the business as opposed to the service you are providing and more so than any other field, its a violation of ethics in the very doctrines we have to certify with each year.
Anyway, i have mentally checked out already but just getting back into finance is so difficult now because I have a violent offense in my background of Voluntary Man, my ability to pursue my profession has been greatly, almost completely damaged as it pertains to ethics, reputation, and finance in consulting businesses. Almost everytime I speak on it in a personal setting, even with those i have business relationships with, Im understood or even applauded for what I did but the professional side of the nature of our field makes it almost impossible for us to have a business relationship.
With that being the case, my savings from years of success in my last job from 07 are dwindling to a point where now, the little im paid at my organization is not enough to stay the course. Coupled with the fact that my organization is so poorly managed on the administrative level and my boss and I at odds, always arguing because ive told him that my reason for being there is about something bigger than us both and that my career background actually puts me over him in the ability to run his own company. I routinely tell him that i would normally be hired by him to run his organization properly because of his lack of knowledge/precision. Its puts us in a weird dynamic because he knows he could never get anyone with my credentials to work for him at anywhere near what he pays me, and that he knows my resolve isnt about money so he'll take advantage of it.
So with nothing lined up, not too much more than nothing in my savings and a car from my days of success that now needs major servicing (that i no longer have the type of job to afford) coupled with having a very active social life with broads and the brehs...yes. I am considering quitting despite this all, without anything lined up. Ive done it in the past without all this stacked against me but i will apparently do it again knowing the weight that will befall me. Peace of mind after such an intense working environment is worth the risk.
My parents raised a strong man and I furthered what they nurtured as an adult. I trust my abilities and character, and will continue to take chances moving forward. Im both fortunate and unfortunate in knowing that sometimes you just have to take a chance at life. Even if you fail, its a fail you can live with and learn from because you didnt just stand on a ledge looking at the other side with want in your heart. Its life breh, and the only way to do it right is to live it. When I almost died some years ago (unrelated to this) i realized that the things that mattered to me when i honestly thought it was over, wasnt what i had actually accomplished or even what i failed in, but if i had done everything in my power to atleast TRY as hard as i could. It changed how I lived my life from that moment on with the most indurated conviction. You HAVE to try if weighs that heavy on your heart breh.