Ok so rewatching Clay's episode a revelation popped in my head that either I just discovered something deep... or I'm just blowing something out of proportion. I'm watching the episode of Clay listening to his tape and what went down during the party with him and Hannah. As I was watching I was thinking about everything Hannah was saying in this episode and out of nowhere I suddenly came to the conclusion that....
this is not Clay's tape at all, this is Hannah's tape. That tape was herself blaming herself of everything that went down that night and labeling herself with the other people that she blame for her loss of her life and everyone just mistakes it as Clay's tape but that's the deception of it. Hannah herself is #11 of the cassettes on the facts that:
1) She regrets sending Clay out of the room because not only did she gave up the one thing that could have made her truly happy... but had Clay stayed then Jessica and Justin would have never went into that room and possibly the rape on Jessica might not had happened. But since it happened and with her still in the room she blames herself.
2) Had Hannah not sent Clay away she wouldn't have rode with the cheerleader which ultimately lead to Jeff's accident... and she blames herself for it.
3) Hannah point blank says on the tape to Clay "Your name does not belong on this list, but you need to be here if I'm going to tell my story." Key words being "my story". When she was rock bottom and just gave up on life and wrote down her list of names for the tapes Hannah's fragile depressed mind had subconsciously wrote down Clay so she can blame herself and also so Clay can pass on the tapes for her since she would be dead.
People saw it one way but they never thought to see it the other way.
this is not Clay's tape at all, this is Hannah's tape. That tape was herself blaming herself of everything that went down that night and labeling herself with the other people that she blame for her loss of her life and everyone just mistakes it as Clay's tape but that's the deception of it. Hannah herself is #11 of the cassettes on the facts that:1) She regrets sending Clay out of the room because not only did she gave up the one thing that could have made her truly happy... but had Clay stayed then Jessica and Justin would have never went into that room and possibly the rape on Jessica might not had happened. But since it happened and with her still in the room she blames herself.
2) Had Hannah not sent Clay away she wouldn't have rode with the cheerleader which ultimately lead to Jeff's accident... and she blames herself for it.
3) Hannah point blank says on the tape to Clay "Your name does not belong on this list, but you need to be here if I'm going to tell my story." Key words being "my story". When she was rock bottom and just gave up on life and wrote down her list of names for the tapes Hannah's fragile depressed mind had subconsciously wrote down Clay so she can blame herself and also so Clay can pass on the tapes for her since she would be dead.
People saw it one way but they never thought to see it the other way.
