Honestly no
I just came out of a 3 year relationship with a great girl I wanted to marry someday. I still miss her often. but it was draining my spirit. Not going into details how it flamed out but it just felt like so much thoughtfulness, stress and compromise amounted to nothing and we split on some nut shyt. I watch relationships persist after all kinds of fukked up shyt, yet I put in effort and my shyt died a feeble death. So the logical part of me cant vouch for me rearrangingy life for what can be temporary emotions. Part of it was her, part of it was me and my outlook. Im over it
I feel like my spirit in some ways wholeheartedly rejects being a kept man and that feeling made me feel incongruous in my relationships despite how much love I have for em.
And now present day...I realize im just happier as a playboy. Im dating 2 great girls and these past few months I've rarely slept alone or longed to bust a nut. I been treated to cooking, movies concerts and restaurants...I've met women ill never forger that inspired me to do greater things that I never would have been as close to had I stuck with the woman I had intentions of marrying.
Idk. I still want kids. i still want a family. And I have to be understanding with the fact that some women I date want that whole marriage set up even if it aint one thats built to last. They want to because they feel they have to even if they dive headfirst into a divorce. But thats the road they wanna go
I have no such pressure and im managing to make a lane for myself. fukk it. Whatever happens, happens.
Imma get me a dog and call it a day
