I'm going thru something similar rn
I met a girl about a month ago at a ceremony , we hooked up that night and she came over to my spot . We took a shower together and was kissing, touching all night butt ass naked . we didn't smash cuz she said she wasn't "romantically attracted to me" but we chilled the whole next day on some couple shyt.
she helped me with my photo biz, give me energy readings ,,, said she views me as a "best friend" .. we aint suppose to be romantically involved, we suppose to be "close friends" something like that
i asked her how she feel about me and first thought that came to her is "she loves me" ,, but she dont wanna be close because the company I keep, life I live, etc
she said she got a reading from her godmother and she told her don't mess with me ,, I use to run the street life (not no more), so her father said don't mess with me either
so I fell back ,, I started focusing on me and healing my heart from what seems to be wasted time and energy ,,, and since I started focusing on me , she lowkey feeling some type of way cuz I'm not communicating with her how I once was .. but in the back of mind im saying "she dont want me 'romantically' so why spend a bunch of energy if it aint going anywhere. we friends"
she still answers my calls when I call her , she wanna barter biz trades when she in town .. we suppose to be just "friends" but we had a deep level of intimacy when we first met (her words not mine). she left town that weekend we met , and we suppose to be meeting again this weekend when she get back
@junie @bourgeoisie tall freak @Seoul Gleou somebody make it make sense , cuz I'm tryna get over it