did you see what you just said. "first time he got CAUGHT" . meaning what? he's been on it like that. you do realize moms even if she didnt catch him saw the signs and ignored them. why? for the reason she told you. she was so invested in this man that all things logical went out the window.My dad said that was the first time he was caught. and she knew that because it's common sense, if you make something the most important thing on earth, you'll do anything and deal with anything to keep it.
You're not trying to help me, you're trying to get me to accept a man treating me like shyt and exposing me to diseases. I will be perfectly fine being single, I've never felt lonely when I was single. I don't need a man, if I have a man that means I wanted him but I can live without him and I'm not going to let him cheat on me just to say I have a man. and I will never let a man lead me.
again the good book tells us how this is supposed to work. in order.:
First: God
2nd: Your Spouse
3rd: your kids
The reason God first is because God will take care of your spouse and your kids. meaning, he will help them on the spiritual side of things that you cant yet see, things that are behind closets(skeletons or sinful ways, etc.) So by them seeing you trust in God and do right them in everything you do. They will see how it works. and eventually hopefully they will follow your lead. there's no guarantees in a falling/broken world of sin. so get that out of your right now. aint no guarantees. all you can do is the play the hand you were dealt. if worse case scenario happens and your spouse does you dirty. chalk it up as a life lesson and keep it pushing(we're assuming it wasnt a mistake, this is who that person is. its in their character. thats something you cant change. thats something they have to work on by themselves.
as long as you realize a part of being married is putting your heart on the ground to be stepped on or picked up and caressed. its up to your spouse how he/she treats your heart. its not up to you how they treat your heart. there's nothing you can do to make them treat you RIGHT, Better, etc. NOTHING. get that in your head now. stop trying to change people. aint going to happen. now you can show them how to do better, pray with, and for them. give them the room to grow. be the first one to suggest seeing a counselor a psychiatrist, etc. as my wife says, human's are bruised fruit. all of us are. something(s) happened in your childhood that never sat well with you. dudes and chicks included. and you still aint right today. that has helped make you, who you are for better or for worse.
i still remember Ray Lewis(football player) telling his life story talking about his main reason for going so hard in football was to erase his dead beat dads high school records. and he did it. and he felt good doing it. cause he basically hated the man. that drove him to be a pro athlete. but that also semi drove him crazy. anytime you harboring that much resent towards someone for that many years. it will affect you in a negative way.
you get married to someone and you havent resolved that negative issue(those demons). the person you've married has their issues(demons). yall get together and now what? you had 2 demons and he had 2. thats 4 now for both of yall to deal with. dont throw no kids in the mix.
this is why you need to get ya self together as much as you possibly can FIRST before you jump into marriage. i dont care what nobody tells you. dont do it, until you've settled those underling issues. oh by the way you can be a good person and still have underlining issues you have not resolved with your past.