Actually its your mind state but hopefully The Nigerian doesn't take you or people like you seriously. If I remember correctly you live somewhere in Baltimore and are broke.....also a horrible photographer. You're stuck in a cycle of failure that's not really your fault and to be honest its more than likely that you'll never rise beyond your station in life, most likely never even leave your town.
It must suck to be young and already know your life is pretty much over, that you really have no chance of anything popping off. I respect the Nigerians hustle but he's lucky he had some advantages in life that allow him to be in a position to make moves. You didn't have any of those advantages, you never had to chance at this and understandably it pisses you off.
Don't worry homie, things might be better in the next life.