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Dr. Narcisse
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Even my immediate family doesnt seem to "know" me too well because they dont pay attention to everything i do and everything i say. 
just when they feel like it or what they want to see. I love them though. They never seem to know when im depressed (and i dont think they care either) but they sure as hell can tell me to stop smoking weed because they dont want me to be a "junkie" or to stop doing something that they feel makes them look bad. They dont even seem to take their own mental health seriously which is why i seem to clash with them because they cant see where theyre fukked up at and dont want to get help or therapy. IM NOT A fukkING THERAPIST. Hell, in one persons case, they cant seem to understand how they stress me out even watching how theyre moving and then venting all their issues to me as if Im a therapist when their issues are heavy as hell. I guess that explains a lot.
Im just boiling over internally and i feel like theres folks waiting for me to snap so they can say "i told you hes crazy or something was off with him". Then when im all isolating myself, not talking to folks because i dont want to "open up", paranoid because i dont know who to trust, people wonder why. Thats why i say fukk the world sometimes because i feel like the world is saying fukk you to me for just existing. I try to be peaceful but I cant lie when I say that I really get angry to the point of really wanting to hurt somebody, destroying something, or being destructive to get all out of this shyt out to show how pissed off i really am inside. If i knew how to box, i would take my anger out in the ring but best believe, i might go overboard where i might probably lose control of myself or really hit someone hard to the point where i seriously hurt them on some make them an example to send a message to everybody to not get on the wrong side of me. That fear has to be put there to ensure respect i guess. Ive been more angry, numb or sad than ive been happy in my teenage and adult years to tell you the truth. shyt obviously isnt good for my health but i cant seem to control my emotions. Journal writing and exercising isnt enough for me when it comes to managing my anger, sadness and emotions.
just when they feel like it or what they want to see. I love them though. They never seem to know when im depressed (and i dont think they care either) but they sure as hell can tell me to stop smoking weed because they dont want me to be a "junkie" or to stop doing something that they feel makes them look bad. They dont even seem to take their own mental health seriously which is why i seem to clash with them because they cant see where theyre fukked up at and dont want to get help or therapy. IM NOT A fukkING THERAPIST. Hell, in one persons case, they cant seem to understand how they stress me out even watching how theyre moving and then venting all their issues to me as if Im a therapist when their issues are heavy as hell. I guess that explains a lot.Im just boiling over internally and i feel like theres folks waiting for me to snap so they can say "i told you hes crazy or something was off with him". Then when im all isolating myself, not talking to folks because i dont want to "open up", paranoid because i dont know who to trust, people wonder why. Thats why i say fukk the world sometimes because i feel like the world is saying fukk you to me for just existing. I try to be peaceful but I cant lie when I say that I really get angry to the point of really wanting to hurt somebody, destroying something, or being destructive to get all out of this shyt out to show how pissed off i really am inside. If i knew how to box, i would take my anger out in the ring but best believe, i might go overboard where i might probably lose control of myself or really hit someone hard to the point where i seriously hurt them on some make them an example to send a message to everybody to not get on the wrong side of me. That fear has to be put there to ensure respect i guess. Ive been more angry, numb or sad than ive been happy in my teenage and adult years to tell you the truth. shyt obviously isnt good for my health but i cant seem to control my emotions. Journal writing and exercising isnt enough for me when it comes to managing my anger, sadness and emotions.
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Man i had a nice restful 4 days off back to work on saturday...
Got this essential jackson 5 album... damn it slaps stupid hard. not all the songs but the ones i like...
africngiant
All Star
these nikkas done fukked up giving me my own office
My face been like this whole time reading all the comments from the Bushes 
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LIFE IS A MOVIE..........*
Real shyt, i notice how some of these folks are wilding or doing weird shyt and are trying to normalize their weirdness or craziness without being REAL with themselves and what they are doing or what they are spreading creating bigger problems or setting themselves up to fail.
And by being REAL, i mean as in FULLY understanding what they are doing as in seeing what they could be doing wrong and/or right. There is a such thing as being misguided or mislead into thinking the wrong way to go about something is correct when its not. You could be misguided for the purpose of someone taking advantage of you or doing something that may be detrimental to you. Then because youve been told its okay, you spread it to someone else and before you know it, youve created a bigger problem with a bunch of misguided people. This is when you have to really think for a second. Even the elders are wrong about some shyt. Age doesnt always equal wisdom. If youre smart, dont be afraid to use your intelligence or show youre smart. Thats what been irritating me as of late. Sometimes you gotta go against the grain because shyt isnt right and you gotta show folks around you that may not know that theres a better way. But some people are not going to get it because they would rather be on some lower plain/vibration shyt.
sometimes you have to leave those people behind If you want to survive or do better.
And by being REAL, i mean as in FULLY understanding what they are doing as in seeing what they could be doing wrong and/or right. There is a such thing as being misguided or mislead into thinking the wrong way to go about something is correct when its not. You could be misguided for the purpose of someone taking advantage of you or doing something that may be detrimental to you. Then because youve been told its okay, you spread it to someone else and before you know it, youve created a bigger problem with a bunch of misguided people. This is when you have to really think for a second. Even the elders are wrong about some shyt. Age doesnt always equal wisdom. If youre smart, dont be afraid to use your intelligence or show youre smart. Thats what been irritating me as of late. Sometimes you gotta go against the grain because shyt isnt right and you gotta show folks around you that may not know that theres a better way. But some people are not going to get it because they would rather be on some lower plain/vibration shyt.
sometimes you have to leave those people behind If you want to survive or do better.
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Organic Trees
Go Cavs! #LetEmKnow
Made my soft ass co worker throw a temper tantrum last night 
Organic Trees
Go Cavs! #LetEmKnow
My face been like this whole time reading all the comments from the Bushes
A French Artist gifted me his Oil on Canvass
Don't wanna sell but defo might get it appraised
Don't wanna sell but defo might get it appraised
