Essential The Locker Room's Random Thoughts

[Cory MBA]

Got fired on new years eve... Decided to take some time
Offf.


Then momma grows ill. I become a care taker from april til her death on Sept 23 (the day after my sisters bday)

Checking eventually depletes and remaining balance on savings on famish mode. Been living off credit since feb.

Little cousin got full scholarship to UDub but offs himself in late april (a week before my 33rd bday) becuz of a chick. His mom walked into the garage one morning and found him hanging by a rope.


Tired of people asking me how im doing. Like i have a choice. Most people i know never lost their momma. Just leave me alone.


Hard to think about work when grieving. Momma didnt trust her baby enuff for me to be her trust fund baby. Is what it is.


Now reality sets in and everybody is counting on u to be successful and take care of the family.


This is my time it seems.

I have been there. Fully grieve but try not to dwell on horrible events. Think about the good times and focus on short-term tasks and long-term goals, if possible. The tide will turn if you don't let yourself sink. Keep swimming.

 

[Sonic Boom of the South]

Got fired on new years eve... Decided to take some time
Offf.


Then momma grows ill. I become a care taker from april til her death on Sept 23 (the day after my sisters bday)

Checking eventually depletes and remaining balance on savings on famish mode. Been living off credit since feb.

Little cousin got full scholarship to UDub but offs himself in late april (a week before my 33rd bday) becuz of a chick. His mom walked into the garage one morning and found him hanging by a rope.


Tired of people asking me how im doing. Like i have a choice. Most people i know never lost their momma. Just leave me alone.


Hard to think about work when grieving. Momma didnt trust her baby enuff for me to be her trust fund baby. Is what it is.


Now reality sets in and everybody is counting on u to be successful and take care of the family.


This is my time it seems.

gah damm


man dontlet your fam stress you out like it is all on you to take care of them after all this happened

so you were the one tking care of ya moms but someone else got her trust fund?

are they doing anything for the fam with that money at all?

 

[The Mad Titan]

 

[IronFist]

this girl got the nerve to play these "unlisted number" games and then get mad as hell when i dont answer.

 

[Kiyoshi-Dono]

Long time lurker..
Finally made the jump to make a SN..

 

[I Lord Justice]

I'm over her.....

After a year and a half, i'm over her......

 

[Strapped]

So cnn let soledad Obrien go ,she is on kpbs

 

[Akio]

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[Doin2Much Williams]

gah damm


man dontlet your fam stress you out like it is all on you to take care of them after all this happened

so you were the one tking care of ya moms but someone else got her trust fund?

are they doing anything for the fam with that money at all?

My dad got it all. But before momma passed, he's been taking my moms money (she was the bread winner, worked 55 plus hours a week at boeing, manufacturing plant) to build a vacation home in the motherland (she wasn't a proponent of the idea, but as a yes woman, she inherently accepted the idea, but it ate her up inside).


Her dying wish was for him to stop taking the money and using it for offshore property investments/philandering (the latter is alleged, but numerous rumors have to have some legitimacy somewhere in there; but who knows... my mom did find his adulterous emails, so that speaks a million words).


Every one in my family, including my moms siblings blame my dad for placing so much pressure for my to work over time, the stress and humiliation of infidelity on my dads end... just really took a toll on my mom.


I was always momma's favorite... but according to my aunt, the reason why i wasn't placed as a beneficiary was cuz momma somehow had presumptions that i would wed a greedy gold digger and she'd take advantage of me (which is far from any possibility because i don't even want to get married. Obviously not a simp either cuz i'm tight with money... but momma assumed otherwise).


Any who, the money went to my dad and sis. The least of her favorite people.



Funny how the world works.



Its always the people that care the most that get fukked over the most.



Now... to find a job and just hope things get better overtime.



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[Motife43]

Was at my homie's house earlier tonight and somehow the conversation shifted to strip clubs. It was me, my homie, his wife, and his female cousin. I brought up a local strip junt.

Me: Yeah I been to that junt
Homie's Cousin: Oh for real? My cousin dance there *pulls up her page on Instagram*
Homie Wife: I KNOW HER. She dance at Strokers too!
HC: I ain't know that
HW: Yeah gurlllll she do porn too. I seen her before
HC I knew she had another life but I aint know it was like that

Homie: I need to see them pornos

Randomest shyt

 

[Sonic Boom of the South]

My dad got it all. But before momma passed, he's been taking my moms money (she was the bread winner, worked 55 plus hours a week at boeing, manufacturing plant) to build a vacation home in the motherland (she wasn't a proponent of the idea, but as a yes woman, she inherently accepted the idea, but it ate her up inside).


Her dying wish was for him to stop taking the money and using it for offshore property investments/philandering (the latter is alleged, but numerous rumors have to have some legitimacy somewhere in there; but who knows... my mom did find his adulterous emails, so that speaks a million words).


Every one in my family, including my moms siblings blame my dad for placing so much pressure for my to work over time, the stress and humiliation of infidelity on my dads end... just really took a toll on my mom.


I was always momma's favorite... but according to my aunt, the reason why i wasn't placed as a beneficiary was cuz momma somehow had presumptions that i would wed a greedy gold digger and she'd take advantage of me (which is far from any possibility because i don't even want to get married. Obviously not a simp either cuz i'm tight with money... but momma assumed otherwise).


Any who, the money went to my dad and sis. The least of her favorite people.



Funny how the world works.



Its always the people that care the most that get fukked over the most.



Now... to find a job and just hope things get better overtime.



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damm thats wild


your pops an a$$hole

my ex from Guam mom is like that

my ex was the 1 kid out of 5 that did things for her mom
she allowed her to live with her and all that
her mom even stole money from her while she was stationed in Korea

but for some reason her mom trust the other kids the most

 

[Sonic Boom of the South]

Yo i legit might be like Bruce Willis in unbreakable



today at the gym i was doing push ups
with 85lb dumb bells ontop of 6 plates
with them placed at a 90 degree angle apart
and one slipped and landed right on my ankle

i also had 20lb ankle weights on each one

and i didnt break shyt



i might be a super hero on this bytch



but aint no hoes getting saved

 

[Hope]

Can anyone one pm or quote me so I'm alerted...

How much is an overdue book by two weeks owed to public library? fukk around I'll keep the book and just pay lost fees. It's a great book.

I used to get charged way too much for boring, wack ass DVD's, don't like to mess with Libraries. no time to keep up with due dates. A neighbor of mine worked there and would delete charges on DVDs.

 

[Doin2Much Williams]

damm thats wild


your pops an a$$hole

my ex from Guam mom is like that

my ex was the 1 kid out of 5 that did things for her mom
she allowed her to live with her and all that
her mom even stole money from her while she was stationed in Korea

but for some reason her mom trust the other kids the most

haha. You know. It's funny... because by the end of the day, that's the only thing you can do about it.


Its lifes ironies that really have you confused about why things the way they are. Ultimately, all you can do is do your best, be a good citizen with righteous thoughts/actions, accept it when life throws you lemons... and hope the karma khameleon falls on your side of the tracks.


I always kept my mom fresh with nice clothes, ice or expensive gems every birthday/moms day or christmas (my sister never bought mom shiit... and dad didn't even buy her a wedding ring, let alone jewelry, who you think bought her the ring on her finger? Damn. I was basically my momma's boyfriend).


But all that, i never had the intent to do so to get anything in return, didn't expect to inherit anything... because i always did it out of love. I admired my mom more than anything on the planet. I even told myself when i was young, if momma ever died I would MURK myself.


Of course, i'm much older now and its actually a moronic idea... but the ether of her passing burns really really slow (as realistic and rational of a person i am... her dying is one thing, but watching her deteriorate before my eyes and me being helpless... is something that's etched into my mind and soul until the end of eternity).


I was never able to buy her a car or crib, never got married so she could see me walk down the aisle... will never know what its like for my momma... my angel to hold my first born...


ITS SOOO FUKKIN FUKKKED UP.



Gawt damn fam. i'm crying right now... i don't know. It just really really sucks.



Everything sucks right now.



I don't wanna be here anymore.



i dont want to wake up anymore. I fukked up. i was so dumb. All these years... being a grown kid and nothing to show for it.




Feel like momma died in vain. She already lost 3 kids due to infancy problems, sister got divorced 9 years ago, lost her own momma 3 years back and her little lap dog that she came home to everyday... also died 2 years ago. It's been a rough ride. She just couldn't handle it anymore. That's why i stayed home, decided not to move in with my girl to keep momma happy. To be the mediator when pops acted up or kept momma slave in her own home (never let her go shopping, go visit her sisters in california... at least not with a fight, and when she got home, she got a whole lot of lip for it for days/weeks... and i would get into fights with my dad, but when i'm not home, he's back to being verbally a dyck to mom).


Any way, i digress.


Now my dad is trying to right his wrong, feeling remorse for being a douche of a husband, sociopathic/irreverent father to his children and family members.


But its too late. Momma was so angry during her last days with the cancer. She was in pain but was so angry and distraught at how she allowed her husband to walk over her and manipulate her for so many years.



Only reason why she never divorced... cuz it wasn't in her heart. She stayed together for her kids.



If that's not sacrifice... i dont' know what is. She was a walking angel. A modern day Mother Terese and Princess Di rolled up into one.



And i had her for 33 years.



I'll never forget her.



*sighs* and for her to die the way she did was sooo misfortunate. To basically died a slow, starving death.



You want to see living hell? Well.. i experienced it first hand.



4 months of that. Clinging on by a thread and not knowing when you're gonna die and momma prolly wondering why me? A healthy woman who exercised 5-6 times a week, ate healthy and family had history of no cancers or ailments. 14 siblings (she the 3rd oldest at 59 years old) and my mom goes first. Funny thing is, the 2 older siblings (one of them happens to be a millionaire, successful entrepreneur) of my momma never took care of the younger ones. It was my mom that played the eldest... she worked her fingers to the bone. But this is the thanks she got. A death certificate and a swift one at that.


Lucky me i guess.



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[Dafunkdoc_Unlimited]

Why I don't get stressed..............



That's funny as HELL to me.......now.​