The Life and Times of Rozay Oro

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I’m there to get paid my nikka. Why you nikkas only see mention women and automatically go to sex. My nikka I said a lot. Got a conscious avi but won’t read for muthafukkin shyt.

Get paid, but not to kill yourself over a place that you hate. The whole point is for you not to work there more than necessary.
 

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Seems kinda quick to be calling this a career, you should def still be in your probationary period if it’s a state job.

You got plenty of time to fukk it all up and go back to the type of work you miss
 

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Girls don’t choose me at clubs because I’m a runt and in the bars with some dancing, girls just dance with they friends.

:russ:

but on a serious note..i notice some of you coli dudes dont mind talking down about yourselves..its funny to me mainly because i don't know any male that does this in real life..only women.
 

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It's only going to get worse op,

You already struggle with women with your free time and having money and a basic job isn't going to have them flock to you.

You might need to accept you aren't nothing special to most women. I'm sure you are a nice guy and all but as you get more centered in your career, you aren't going to have alot of time to yourself.

It's going to he imperative you find a passion or a hobby that brings you value in your life. If you do find someone who interest I you then take advantage of it, there's not going to be many chances for you.

Plus you still live in bum ass south Carolina too right?
 

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@Rozay Oro I think OP just needs a solution to the feeling of craving the old work moods.

OP I am at the same place as you. Worked shytty jobs with lots of young brehettes feeling like a black ragnar knocking them all down.

Now I work in a more professional setting with old head cacs only, im even the only breh here. Can be depressing.

My current solution is work the shytty job part time, like only on sundays or saturdays. I just started security in a mall yesterday and that the fukkery I craved started immediately. Brehs, brehettes, good talks, shyt talks, flirting, all in 1 day. I love it:wow:
 

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OP you need a hobby or an outlet you can explore on your downtime. I work a corporate job as well. When I'm not doing anything I like to sketch (comic book style stuff), look at some art inspiration on youtube, study anatomy, hell sometimes I even post on thecoli (not sure how cool they are about work computer use). shyt pretty much saves me mentally from losing it around here. Consider something like that. Art is always a great way to occupy your own time. Nobody can take a pencil and paper away from you, not even the most stiff conservative job. Maybe bring a good selection of reading to your job, maybe you like fiction, or comics/graphic novels. Personally I'm big on non-fiction. When's the last time you took some time to open a page and brush up on your African history young blood :ufdup:, where's your contemporary sociology studies on race and white supremacy in the 21st century :ufdup:, how about a biography on someone you admire or want (or need) to know more about :ufdup:. As a black man in America have you ever sat down and read "the Souls of black folk" or "Assata" or "Black Skin White Mask" :ufdup:. Essential reading and perfect for your downtimes. Hell when's the last time you sat down with some fine literature and indulged in some Ernest Hemingway, Stephen King, JD Salinger, Toni Morisson, F Scott Fitzgerald, Langston Hughes, Maya Angelou :ufdup:. That's essential reading.

Self help books on psychology are great too. You seem to have an interest in the psychology of male-female relations and sexuality, plenty of great stuff there. You got a copy of "Way of The Superior Man," "How to Win Friends and Influence People," "Think and Grow Rich" or "As a Man Thinketh" :ufdup: How about some zen master Thich Nhat Hahn books :ufdup:. Don't slack on your spiritual/motivational text, especially at this time in your life.

Humor books are awesome too, especially if it's got some intellectual value. Art and photography books kick serious ass. Anything you've just wanted to self-learn about even if you have no intention of pursuing it? Software Coding? Stock Trading? Any curiosities still in your heart?

How about puzzles or some form of non-video gaming that you can do privately. If you got a laptop there's all types of cool things you can sit down and get into as a daily outlet while at work. I once worked with a young Cape Verdean breh who would come to work everyday with his laptop and headphones, boot up FL Studio, and work on beats on his downtime (when he wasn't sneaking Fortnite sessions). Nowadays you can get a damn near handheld MIDI controllers and production stations and explore your musical creativity. The Korg Electribe (hardware sequencer/production station) takes batteries and is smaller than a desktop keyboard so you can produce on the fly anywhere. And music gear/production is one hobby that will keep you BUSY.

Hell I been thinking about purchasing a microscope soon because I been so interested in microbiology. I have no plans to ever become a microbiologist, I just need my personal outlets and hobbies.

You GOT to have these things in your life now as a working adult now with no more school or career goals to motivate you everyday. It is absolutely essential to your mental health to still have personal goals, aspirations, and interests that truly belongs to you, even if you are at the height of career success. This is why so many people desperately look for life partners to have families once they feel stable career wise. To avoid the mundane and lonely boredom of being single and just working. It's hard to live day to day with nothing more to reach towards. You bout to learn to real quick there's way more to life then lining up sex partners and stacking money week to week. :manny:

You still finding yourself young brother. We've all reached that "plateau" where we feel like there's nothing else left and life kinda...sucks now. It's called a midlife crisis (pre-midlife for you), and many a working man no matter his income has hit that point and came out discovering his true self Your true self is not defined by the job, the girl, the car, or the crib. Believe that. Your savings account can be sky high and you about to realize it don't mean shyt when you don't know yourself and have no further personal goals, intellectual interests or direction. Get yourself to a local Barnes and Noble this .
 

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I know my writing is scattered brain but i try my best to be clear. It’s more than just wanting a girl for me.

I think I just hate me overall to be real. Deep down I would like a cool girl but I think I realized I’m doomed to loneliness.

The highlight of my day was going to the small work cafeteria for the first time (forgot my lunch at the crib lol) and being served my order at my table while everyone else had to wait for their shyt to be done to walk to their table.

I guess cause my work badge shows my department which makes me looks like some Good Samaritan although I’m still in training.

Consider some good motivational/spiritual/self-help texts like the ones I've named. You should consider a therapist at this point in your life as well. Your fear of loneliness and need for validation from a relationship or sex partner to feel "safe" and secure in most like a manifestation of some deep seated trauma and childhood experiences. There's nothing wrong with wanting to love and be loved, but this worldview you hold about being "alone" and "needing someone" is unsustainable to your long term health and happiness. There is nothing wrong as a grown ass man with having your mental health team, resources and outlets. It's important.
 

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@Rozay Oro I think OP just needs a solution to the feeling of craving the old work moods.

OP I am at the same place as you. Worked shytty jobs with lots of young brehettes feeling like a black ragnar knocking them all down.

Now I work in a more professional setting with old head cacs only, im even the only breh here. Can be depressing.

My current solution is work the shytty job part time, like only on sundays or saturdays. I just started security in a mall yesterday and that the fukkery I craved started immediately. Brehs, brehettes, good talks, shyt talks, flirting, all in 1 day. I love it:wow:
I literally was just about to say this lol. Might as well get a part-time job for some fukkin.
 

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Invest in a therapist and see them religiously. Some people need more help than others. No shame in that.
 

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Also OP consider volunteer work in your community. Its a fantastic way to meet lots of new people and doing something selflessly for others is great for your mental health, your spirit, and your self esteem.
 
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