Smh not trying to be an a-hole or anything but OP,
@murksiderock , what kind of man do you think you are?
Truly sad reading all of this
I don't understand the question, do you mean to the woman I'm with?
Your problem isn't heartbreak, your ego is hurt because she seems to have a new dude. As soon as you realize that, it will be easier to move on.
It's a bit of both. There is real love here. But my ego is definitely bruised and that may be 50% of what I'm feeling. Whatever portion it is, my ego is definitely part of it. I'm trying to reconcile that...
Here’s the truth, you gonna have to compete if you want her back. By the sound of things, you want her back so go do what you have to do. You ain’t ready to accept the grievance stages of heartbreak right now so go out there and do it
Part of me knows this is salvageable but it has to be met on certain terms---->and the reason I know that there's a chance this is salvageable is because she's said it, too. This isn't a situation where she's turned the page on us, she's caught up in her emotions, too...
I feel like if she was like "nah ain't nothing here, it's over with", it would be much easier for me to handle. The thing is that I also realize it may not be salvageable, when that conversation happens, we have to be clear on our expectations of each other. And if they don't align, we gotta move on...
So ultimately, that's where we are. I woke up this morning in a better mood than yesterday and that's thanks in part to the dialogue here, yall know I'm a talker, but I don't have those kinda people I trust like that. I'm the kind of brother I have to be able to emote when I'm effected by something. Having minimal places to turn and let this shyt off was contributing to whatever I'm feeling...
So to your point, I think I'm starting to form more clarity on what I need to do. All those advice on here was good advice and I'm considering it all, and there's certainly a strong ass argument to treating this like she's moved on and bounce myself, especially since I initiated this...
I'm gonna stay true to myself and I'll roll with the facts of the situation, part of my grief is a bunch of "wondering" and trying to figure out shyt. So this first step I'm on, is to stop hypothesizing and trying to do guesswork because THAT shyt isn't helping me move on nor act in my own best interests in this situation...
She moved another man in without telling me. She says it's temporary, and they arent intimate. She's left the door open for reconciliation. She could very well be lying about these things, there's a high enough probability that she is. But I don't know that. What I do know is her actions, to the best of my knowledge, are a reaction to my initial actions. And that isn't okay with me...
So giving the space needed to sort all the shyt out is necessary. And for me, is her moving this man in unbeknownst to me egregious enough to move on? No it isn't, it's egregious, and we've touched on this, and she's apologized for not telling me about it, but it's egregious. I spoke earlier that old boy told me it's not like that, and of course he could be lying, too. And my homeboy told me from everything he knows, it isn't no romantic shyt, and I believe that's what he knows. So the only thing on this part that I feel like, would make the relationship unrecoverable, is actual proof that it is some romantic shyt...
Alot of guys in here will disagree with this and look, I definitely see the argument for "what more do you need to see, Rodney?" I see it, and it's run thru my mind plenty of times since February 19, trust me. But yo your point of doing what I need to do, this is the first step that I feel like is right for me, to view this situation thru this prism, because it could still ultimately mean our relationship is truly over...
There are plenty of other things for me to consider here, especially the financial aspect. Bit this is the first step on how I have to get to whatever the resolution is, view this shyt on what I actually know. And eliminating the shyt I don't know is lifting a lot of anguish off me, a lot of self-punishment I don't have to do to myself. And I can be happy with wherever the results end at looking at this shyt thru the frame of logic instead of hypotheticals...
I read this shyt...
Child mother asked for more funds and you curved her...
Moved away on the hush hush
You reappear and then get in your feelings cuz another nikka there..
He is paying and(maybe)clappin, and now you in your feelings...
Why does she owe you an explanation after you abandoned her?
Well she owed the explanation because my child is there, that's most importantly. Even if she didn't delve into specifics of their relationship, she should have told me another man was in the home with my daughter. That isn't even objectionable, and she did apologize for this...
The second part though, is our relationship had no finality. It still doesn't. Not giving up the money you wanted doesn't mean move a man in to help you with bills. This part, is contestable, but I feel I'm right in this aspect because it ain't like I haven't given up money for her. I sent her money TWICE in the first month I was gone, once for new tires, once for her lights, and only told her no the third time, maybe you missed that part...
It's not like I haven't supported her. I haven't spent all my money on her. And it's probably fair that there are occasions I told her no that I should have spent for her, and that built resentment from her end...
She's 100% right to be upset about me leaving and finding out thru mutual acquaintances rather than me myself...
Women hard headed bruh. She doing what she doing thinking she helping herself lol I’ve learned you gotta just let her carry her own cross and you gotta carry yours.
Clearly she was macking behind the scenes on you.
It sucks when a child especially a daughter is involved.
I been dealing with similar thing since a month before my child first birthday.
I told mother I need more time for my business and because my child was with me all day. Mom wouldn’t adjust or even attempt to change work schedule smh
I said that about time and shyt she came home packed them up same day.
Hurt at first thinking damn my whole world up in smoke but maaaaan fukk that. Got life to live.
Honestly you gotta just be real with yourself and stick to being real with self!!! You gotta look at her flaws that had you fukked up just like she holding weight on your head and judgement of what you’ve done.
But don’t hold it on her head just KNOW it in YOUR MIND. Forgive no forget type shyt don’t gotta rub it in they face. Be a man. Go do what you like to do with the time you have freed.
Speak to other woman be strong and confident.
Idk what happened and maybe it’s cause I got nothing to lose but man my confidence has skyrocketed back since really seeing my old relationship for what it truly is, dysfunctional. Go be around family and people that truly love you or at least want to see you do good and feel good.
I feel like me again.
Thats what I mentioned above, working on being real with myself in all aspects. It's a journey. I'm working at it!