Okay, this is my first time asking the Salon for advice; so if I come off as apprehensive please forgive me. For transparency reasons I'll try to be as descriptive as possible.
Yesterday I received a text message from my ex girlfriend. For this thread I'll name her Ashley. Ashley was my first everything. She was my first girlfriend, my first real real love and she was the first girl i lost my virgintity to. To be more blunt I actually thought what it would be like to have a family with her. When I was in undergraduate school I added the economics major so it would boost my starting salary more so we could start a life together ( I didn't tell her that tho). I thought about where we were going to live, how many kids we were going to have, should we move to a predominantly black neighborhood, private school or not. I was all in emotionally, physically and spiritually. And even right now I still think about the what ifs about her. I really really love this women and want her to Mrs Hampton.
The only problem is that the way she treated me I know it won't end well. Long story short she cheated on my consistently. She cheated on me a couple of times with some African Guy. And at times me and her got into really bad arguments. She would attack me for being big and as she says it an "annoying goofy Fukk; and I would bring up that she was a real dumbass. But through all that I NEVER EVER cheated on her. I still bought her roses every week ( Sometimes I didn't write a note out of pettiness, when we're arguing); I never put a hand on her physically, EVER. I never bought up her father in which she has a horrible relationship with him. But she still screwed that African guy (Consistently), and she bought up how she has another crush on somebody at her job. It's like I call to reconcile but it's the same cycle. We make up she cheats again, rinse and repeat.
But now she wants to talk. I know it's about " hanging out"; but I'm tired of being in this mental hell with this women. So I wanted to ask you females, is there ever a moment, when maybe it just " Clicks" or something? Maybe I'm holding on to a fantasy; that she's really changed. But As it's said " I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired".
And before it gets promoted
I'm not #HOH
I'm not #GMB
*I'm getting up there in age, and want to get married and have kids. I finished the education part of my life, and my career is going well. Just need to know is there ANY chance this may go well for me. Because she's the women I want to hopefully marry, if possible.
just asking for the point of discussion.
