Honestly you aren't going to be happy either way with your mindset:I stay crying for nothing I don't know if I want to lose weight are build muscle my noob gain will be running out soon
No homo I want to send a picture to someone and see which 1 I should do
Building muscle with minimal fat gain is a extremely slow process. As frustrated as you have been losing this is going to be worse.
How high are you going to build towards? You are what 5'8 230ish? Are you going to 250? 260? Guess what the wight is sill got to come off so you are going to be back to losing fat.
Think about it like this. I'm an inch taller than you and around 188. I'm on the edge of being in "decent shape". Everybody carries weight differently but the fact remains Building muscle from this point with going to require you to lose a lot of fat that's going to come with the gains.
I'm rooting for you but you gotta make a decision and either way it's not going to be easy and it's going to be a long process.