VertigoKnight
Veteran
Well it's over. She effectively ended it. Said she felt like she was never good enough, was auditioning, and that I was holding back while she was being vulnerable. Felt like I wasn't committed to progressing the relationship.
I looked back at old text threads and she was definitely more vulnerable while I was playing it cool. She was like a month ahead of me feelings-wise.
Won't lie - it's hitting me kind of hard for what started as a casual relationship. Feelings really started to grow on my end in the last 2 months. There's a part of me that wants to try again just to go all in, but going to try to take some time to process all of it. I hopped back on the apps and wasn't even excited about being single in the least- haven't felt like that post-breakup since my 1st real relationship in college.
Sorry to hear that breh.
Sometimes due to our own undealt with traumas, we can play it a little too cool. In the past, I've hedged my bets a little too much and ended up seeing in hindsight great women leave my life.
These days I'm fairly open but not silly with my feelings. I think she'll come back around again, if she really was into you as much as she says. If she does would you take that jump with her?
Part of my reply to your original post a few months back was this
I will say finding a woman of any ethnicity who you feel a proper connection with and who you and her just get along is hard in this day and age. shyt is really rough out here. A ton of very damaged women and I'm gonna say men as well. who have done nothing to help themselves. Having a self aware woman who wants to and understands how to talk things out is a boon imo.
Is the issue with her not being black still a roadblock to you?


