Hahaha. I used to do that when i was younger, used to do that all the time.
Now that i've got some experience under my belt, interacting with women doesn't make me nervous.
But this one "DOES" that to me.
Its weird cuz all my contributions in this thread would have pointed in the direction of, "Step ya swag game up and control your feelings and emotions so you don't come off weak."
I know, i know.
Looks like this time though...
Ya beauygh gonna have to rub one out for ease and relief sake.
lol.
Another thing is that, well, i always talk about only dating ethnic women and being very stern on my stance (especially my campaign of support for Sistas only)... but for the first time someone truly stole my breath and captivated my heart - and it's a damn white woman. WTF?!?!
Just goes to show that love is color blind and i need to be more open to dating and consider prospects by the individual rather than an entire group - cuz that's just limiting your options and being closed minded.
If you got shiit to do, just skip the rest of this post. But if you got a moment and want something to do - Here's the back story for those who are bored tonight...
Back in December 15, i was with this one Nepalese chick who i've been trying to gut since i met about a month before. So we're in her apt. and making out heavy and shiit, but i didn't have a condom! She had to wake up early for work the next morning and i had a homie who wanted to go out for drinks - so i split.
Upon entering the venue, i'm amazed. Apparently there's this new club/lounge in town located at the lobby of a Hyatt located in the posh part of town (about 10 miles east of Seattle).
Turns out, my boy was with at secluded corner w/ a birthday group and immediately, i feel underdressed (had on a blazer, but ensembled w a hoody underneath, some dark denim and bred IV's). Any who, part of the bday group were some fine ladies in dresses just talking amongst eachother but the only one that really caught my eye was this Becky (she was thick as hell, i hate to incorporate the term pawg, but that's exactly what she was to a tee).
So i'm thinking about plotting and scheming but my ass was sober as a mothafukka! Went to the bar with my dude to get some drinks and it was on like flaming kick via Fee Long.
Go back to the bday group and see that the ladies (this point, just two, the rest dancing or hating on other girls, etc.) are still untapped by all the guys in the crowd and private den... i was like, "Fukk it! What do i have to lose!"
My goal was to just go up to them and compliment them and sit my ass back down (in the event that it got awkward, at least i would have broken the ice and perhaps, return after i killed it on the dance floor).
*takes deep breaf*
Actually, before i stepped up to them, my boy was supposed to wing me, but he's introverted as fukk and the more we sat and contemplated, the more we would have looked like herbs so said fukk it and pounced.
"Excuse me, y'all ladies look extremely secksy tonight... if i was hungry, i'd eat both of y'all up like campbells soup - no spoon." (First of all, wtf at that line! but... )
The shiit worked!
Of the two girls (the brunette), one said, "Yes! Doesn't my friend look hot! She's gorgeous..."
And you know what that means when the homegirl is advertising her friend like that....(odds are she was single, and this is the one i was jockin' anyway so i'm golden like grahams).
So we chatted for a bit but brunette apparently had a man cuz some dude came in and CAWK BLOCKED!! (Dude poked me in the stomach and said i looked like somebody from his gym... FUKK THAT! Good thing i was in positive spirits or i would spilled my drink on his face or his italian broad cloth button up).
To make a long story short...
The couple went to dance and left me and girl (Dana) and the rest is history.
Fast forward.
I texted her first a few days later and that was that. I had to go on vacation during xmas week so i didn't have time to see her without coming off desperate.
On xmas day, she actually texted "Merry X-mas". That's when i knew good things were to come from this. We went on our first date the sunday after xmas and... i killed it. Had a great time.
The next day was New Years Eve and she had plans.
Around 11 pm that night, i was with my boys and getting ready to go out to a NYE party and she hits me up, asks me about my shenanigans and whatnot... but the thing that got me was she said, "I missed you, hope to see you this week."
After one date?
Yeah... pretty crazy right?
We went on our 2nd date last friday and the whole shiits was like a dream. She looked so beautiful - a walking masterpiece (and i ain't even attracted to white women like that, i think its her aura/ambience, upward attitude, drive and disposition that i fell for).
To wrap things up... this is what gets me.
I have nothing to offer her. She's 27. A law degree under her belt and just went back to school for more shiit and has a full time job.
Me? I ain't got shiit breaghs; not handsome, 5 foot something and very modest income (and modest, i mean miniscule). I'm extremely normal and average in every sense of the word. I mean, i can dance a little bit. Love to tell stories and entertain but other than that... my scores are average across the social board.
Well, whatever it is... i'm glad she appreciates me for me and i ain't got to front about being somebody that i'm not.
We have date numero tres tomorrow and... i'm actually very excited. As a matter of fact, i'm kinda nervous (just took 2 shots of gin so i'm on a moderate buzz).
A crazy thing was, i was playing Wham's Careless Whisper and right when the beat kicked in, she snorted like a baby pig. Haha. She was so embarrassed - but i thought it was so adorable for a girl of her caliber to be so dorky. haha.
I think i found wifey breaghs.
That's all i wanted to say.
Pardon the extensive vent. You can tell that this was dear to my heart cuz i had no puns, create analogies or funny punchlines. She means that much to me.
*sighs*
One thing i wanted to add... the reason why i added the Nepalese chick in the story in the beginning (and not trying to come off braggadocio). Is that she actually left four repulsive yet noticeable hickies on my neck. So the nite i met Dana, i had these Twilight sized suck marks and i figured that would have killed my odds at getting girl but - the gods must be crazy).
But not as crazy as i am for this new girl.
: )
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I dont see this ending well for you.
fall back for a few, take that time and reevaluate ya feelings and look over some of the posts in here. she's no different than any other girl (as of right now).
