Thats definitely what it is cause im going through the EXACT SAME shyt. I don't want to be with her right now but at the sane time I don't want her to be with nobody else. She even texted me one timeIt's just some chick I was seeing throughout last year.
I agreed with her from early that if it got to a certain stage and she wanted more we could just dead the situation.
She was pushing for the relationship, got to an almost ultimatum stage. I told her I wasn't ready to get into anything serious so if that's what she wants we will have to call it quits.
She was the main from the team. Not necessarily the star player but the most reliable.
Currently I have 3 others in rotation and a polish youngin I am trying to get on board I met 2 weeks ago.
But somehow she still runs through my mind on occasions
I'm not sure if it's just a case of me just wanting want I can't have since I have other options already.
"You don't want me but you act like you want me there. I don't get you."
Couldn't really say shyt because I don't even get me sometimes tbh