So I was on the bus home from Toronto and we were talking on the phone. She said she had plans for Saturday earlier in the week but no longer and I mentioned how I wish she woulda told me so I could set something up and she said its okay dont worry about it. Cool. Truth is I often dont have the ability to take her out because she lives downtown now for school and I'm in a suburb with no whip. Times we went out in the past she was living in my neighbourhood and I would drive her infiniti that her parents/brother passed down (she doesnt have her canadian license --> shes an immigrant). But I digress.
I feel bad about not being able to take her out enough as I'd want to because of what i just said and me paying for tuition (done in a week) it limited my possibilities and reach. Still, I mentioned then how I was gonna grab Raptors tickets for a game within the next two weeks anyways. We already discussed this and she was excited about it...but now all of a sudden she seemed like she didnt care to go. Between this and her not wanting to go out this weekend I felt like she was kinda distancing herself...perhaps to prepare to just dump me you know? Like these are how the signs begin and I gotta nip it or pick up on it now. I say this because she was acting a little bit timid or standoffish after some dumb little disagreement we had yesterday (details upon request lol).
So I sensed the bad vibe and asked her why she's acting this way. Dont remember what I said but thats the gist. She started going on about how she just has been getting frustrated and how she doesnt ask me for much (relates to ysterdays disagreement) but overall...she is just not used to guys like me. She's spoiled and high maintenance to be frank whether I want to come to terms with that or not. She is limiting it for me though I must say. But if thats who she naturally is...how long can she last?
Anyway, our mentalities are different and although she has been adapting and trying to understand me which I see. Maybe this thread and my experience has corrupted me. I dunno. I just feel like I was raised a certain way first and foremost. We were discussing the differences somewhat to a point where she just asked me to stop. I guess she didnt wanna hear it.
I exit the bus...and I am saying how although we are different I still feel like we can ultimately reach a compromise gradually as we grow with one another and learn from one another. My whole thing is that I am 21 years old and I have become who I am through years of my parents raising me and instilling values...and years of experiences i've had regarding ANYTHING in life which ends up creating general mindsets and values for any human being. (Note that I'm a psych minor and i know quite a bit about personalitiess coming from genetics vs. nonshared or shared experience concluded by twins blah blah). Anyways...i just feel like I can make the effort to change and I gradually will...but she has to be patient. It's only been two months after all.
She basically says she really doubts it can happen so at that point I'm like
. If you dont think it can happen then why bother. You cannot have doubt and then expect things to work out like its some sort of sport where youre a fan of the underdog. It just sends a bad omen if you ask me. If you dont think itll work, what motivation do you have to make it work. I tell her that she knows she is a free human being and she can do as she wishes so just to remember that. Not even as a threat but hey...I aint holding you hostage.
A little more talk mayve ensued and then i told her that what she must realize is I can play the part and do whats necessary to make her happy...yet still turn around and be a snake behind her back. She said her exboyfriend was nice, used to also buy her gifts and do nice things for her, he was a good guy or whatever but he then cheated. My point was that I could do the same thing...but is that whats good for her? It isnt.
But with me she knows she has a loyal dude who is willing to put in the work and effort to somehow succeed against the odds. That should be whats more important. I guess she doesnt see it or doesnt care though. She always says she feels like I aint trying and I treat her like a regular girl instead of a girlfriend
. I'm trying though brehs. It aint easy with me being a very honest and abrasive guy but I am trying. It's only been two months brehs
What she got out of that though, was I think she just wants a guy who can spend money on her or whatever. She started laughing over the phone asking if I think her family is poor or some shyt and how if that was the case why would she be with me. Totally interpreted my point wrong and wouldnt let me clarify
. They never do. She said she was tired and wouldnt let me explain so I just said okay if you wanna break up then bye. We then hung up. And some other stuff ensued but just read that and I'll continue after some commentary.
Its a shame because I know where she's coming from. She doesnt ask for too much and she just thinks I'm an a$$hole because of my brash nature. I havent been the best boyfriend I can be but there are circumstances hindering that. She just needs to be patient. I dont like feeling like I'm boring her. For her to bring that whole family being rich thing up is foolish too. Like is that something to be proud of? Your dad is rich, he is the hardworking one and you are merely a beneficiary. My dad is a Civil Engineer for
SNC-Lavalin - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia. He is no slouch but he always promoted a do it yourself/self-made mentality. It's just how Ghanaians are. I'm trying to get her to see the picture...but all it takes is a couple of clouds for her to forget what it looks like. Too impulsive man.
, but she stay flirting and when shes drunk thats when she cant control herself around me and be all in her feeling but when she sober she wont let them feeling out
...help me out brehs I know this a good one and worth the fight only chick worth the simp effort
in my opinion
hmmm yea I'll be more assertive cant fall into pure friend zone with this one but she a tough one my god 
). Okay, I'ma be ready.
