We've talked last night and we both admitted our wrongs (her reaching out for friends, me for not being there - never calling and shyt like that). All she wanted was that she was doing a good job back home, taking care of the kids (we have four 15, 12, 8, 5) I admit, that I have not wasn't giving her the attention that shee needed. I tell you this, don't let work consume you. She said she wasn't asking much, just words of encouragement that she was doing a good job. She said "babe, that's all I wanted, just for you to say that I was doing a good job and not your normal Army reply of 'just suck it up and drive on' 
". Then she said "you know how difficult it is with 4 kids with all there fighting and nonsense I have deal with?
" . She got upset with me because I was making irrational decisions half way arcross the world without sitting down with her. She said she understands how I felt, but at the same time, I owed her that face to face. I agreed.
After 15 years of being with her, I asked her if she cheated, and she said no. I know her more than she knows herself, and vice versa. We've talked on the phone for a good 2 hours. After our conversation, we felt better. One thing I must say, she is a very loving person, we've been through so much shyt to together.
She said that she was worried that I have changed and that she said that she has changed. That's understandable; a whole year away from each other - people are going to change.
Before we got off the phone, I asked her to be straight up with me. "Did you ever cheat me on me?"
She said "No, why would I even do that? Do you see that house and the cars I drive? Do you see our children? Why would I give that up for somebody else? I ain't gone, lie, we got our problems, but that's only between us. "
I asked her "how come you did'nt call AAA to fix the tire like I said?" She was like, "Nikka, you want my rates to go up? You see I got that neighbor cutting our grass for free and you ain't said nothing about that, I got allergies bad and I'm not sweating my hair out either.
So what's the difference that I got some ashy nikka changing out the tire for free, you gonna do it all the way ove rthere?"
I was like "The rates don't go up though?
She was like "Do you pay the bills? You know these companies are trying to nickle and dime us for everything
You still want that PS4 right?
The boys want to play Skylanders when you get home, Ray J (my son) can only play for an hour though cause he got homework and he been acting up in school
At that point, I had the seperation papers in my hand already filled out that I got from the JAG office earlier yesterday.
I threw them in the bushes.
". Then she said "you know how difficult it is with 4 kids with all there fighting and nonsense I have deal with?" . She got upset with me because I was making irrational decisions half way arcross the world without sitting down with her. She said she understands how I felt, but at the same time, I owed her that face to face. I agreed. After 15 years of being with her, I asked her if she cheated, and she said no. I know her more than she knows herself, and vice versa. We've talked on the phone for a good 2 hours. After our conversation, we felt better. One thing I must say, she is a very loving person, we've been through so much shyt to together.
She said that she was worried that I have changed and that she said that she has changed. That's understandable; a whole year away from each other - people are going to change.
Before we got off the phone, I asked her to be straight up with me. "Did you ever cheat me on me?"
She said "No, why would I even do that? Do you see that house and the cars I drive? Do you see our children? Why would I give that up for somebody else? I ain't gone, lie, we got our problems, but that's only between us. "
I asked her "how come you did'nt call AAA to fix the tire like I said?" She was like, "Nikka, you want my rates to go up? You see I got that neighbor cutting our grass for free and you ain't said nothing about that, I got allergies bad and I'm not sweating my hair out either.
So what's the difference that I got some ashy nikka changing out the tire for free, you gonna do it all the way ove rthere?"I was like "The rates don't go up though?
She was like "Do you pay the bills? You know these companies are trying to nickle and dime us for everything
You still want that PS4 right? The boys want to play Skylanders when you get home, Ray J (my son) can only play for an hour though cause he got homework and he been acting up in schoolAt that point, I had the seperation papers in my hand already filled out that I got from the JAG office earlier yesterday.
I threw them in the bushes.
. I've lived solo since 22 and she wants to move in this summer but I don't wanna give that up, I feel like thats the final step. shyts skressfull bruh
maybe im selfish but i like being able to do whatever the fukk i want in my spot without hearing somebody else mouth.
