And at another time there in the hotel room he came the nearest to tears that I ever saw him, and
also the only time I ever heard him use, for his race, one word. He had been talking about how
hard he had worked building up the Muslim organization in the early days when he was first
moved to New York City, when abruptly he exclaimed hoarsely, "We had the _best_ organization
the black man's ever had-_******s_ ruined it!"
A few days later, however, he wrote in one of his memo books this, which he let me read,
"Children have a lesson adults should learn, to not be ashamed of failing, but to get up and try
again. Most of us adults are so afraid, so cautious, so 'safe,' and therefore so shrinking and rigid
and afraid that it is why so many humans fail. Most middle-aged adults have resigned themselves
to failure."