fckyoupayme
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Another tip brehs. Replace your liquor with sparkling water. You get a nice burn when it goes down. Reminds you of a smooth whiskey but it’s water
Look I'm a straight drank-a-holic and I'm sipping my last drink as we speak.
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Its an everyday struggle. I shook off the Rehab stay and am now 60 plus days clean. I am at the point where they call it "The Wall". You are very vulnerable and have days where you just don't wanna do shyt. I have found that to be true, some days are good but some are bad. When I have a bad day, I try to hit up as many meetings as I can. Between the outpatient program I go to and AA meetings, there is no reason and lack of resources for me when I don't feel good. Its not like I am craving alcohol, I just notice I am not as centered and for me that is not good for my recovery.
I am definitely waaay better than I have been. I trust the journey and know that day to day is the only way to get by. I have love from family, friends, and most important my recovery circle. Your friends and family may be there for you, but your recovery friends understand and are more easy to relate with when you are going thru it.
Here are the things I do to build a solid foundation
1. Home Group - AA Meeting weekly where i help with service and they know if i am not there to check in on me. I also hit other meetings when I feel like I need to and that has been frequent.
2. Outpatient Program - 12 week 4 days per week for 90 min that focuses on Therapy (DBT, etc)
3. Therapist - I see one every other week for 60 min
4. Exercise and Mental Self Care - sensory deprivation tank, basketball, weights, cardio, meditation
5. Keep Circle Small - family, recovery friends, some friends
Stay strong my friends, one day at a time!
I am definitely waaay better than I have been. I trust the journey and know that day to day is the only way to get by. I have love from family, friends, and most important my recovery circle. Your friends and family may be there for you, but your recovery friends understand and are more easy to relate with when you are going thru it.
Here are the things I do to build a solid foundation
1. Home Group - AA Meeting weekly where i help with service and they know if i am not there to check in on me. I also hit other meetings when I feel like I need to and that has been frequent.
2. Outpatient Program - 12 week 4 days per week for 90 min that focuses on Therapy (DBT, etc)
3. Therapist - I see one every other week for 60 min
4. Exercise and Mental Self Care - sensory deprivation tank, basketball, weights, cardio, meditation
5. Keep Circle Small - family, recovery friends, some friends
Stay strong my friends, one day at a time!
How's everyone's weekend working out?
Its an everyday struggle. I shook off the Rehab stay and am now 60 plus days clean. I am at the point where they call it "The Wall". You are very vulnerable and have days where you just don't wanna do shyt. I have found that to be true, some days are good but some are bad. When I have a bad day, I try to hit up as many meetings as I can. Between the outpatient program I go to and AA meetings, there is no reason and lack of resources for me when I don't feel good. Its not like I am craving alcohol, I just notice I am not as centered and for me that is not good for my recovery.
I am definitely waaay better than I have been. I trust the journey and know that day to day is the only way to get by. I have love from family, friends, and most important my recovery circle. Your friends and family may be there for you, but your recovery friends understand and are more easy to relate with when you are going thru it.
Here are the things I do to build a solid foundation
1. Home Group - AA Meeting weekly where i help with service and they know if i am not there to check in on me. I also hit other meetings when I feel like I need to and that has been frequent.
2. Outpatient Program - 12 week 4 days per week for 90 min that focuses on Therapy (DBT, etc)
3. Therapist - I see one every other week for 60 min
4. Exercise and Mental Self Care - sensory deprivation tank, basketball, weights, cardio, meditation
5. Keep Circle Small - family, recovery friends, some friends
Stay strong my friends, one day at a time
The Prince of All Saiyans
Formerly Jisoo Stan & @Twitter
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fckyoupayme
All Star
Pretty good studied all day and took a 4 hour exam. Resisted the temptation to celebrate with a drink
I got an inner lip tattoo just to create some fuxkery out of this boredom
J.E.T.S
Lookahere mayne...
I'm weak
I am sober and have not thought about coping with my mental issues with booze. But let me tell you, actually putting thought and energy into why you feel the way you do is HARD!!!
I literally am mad at my son for not making a 12 year old baseball elite team. I pushed him, paid for training etc - but he just does not have the will and ability. I played in college, and I wanted him to follow my path and take it further so I am filled with resentment how phucked up is that?
I love my son, and I am trying to stop the repeating manifestation of what happened with me and my father and baseball. All I can do is talk about and hope tomorrow I will wake up and this shyt will have gone away. No alcohol to cope - just typing and talking as therapy
One minute at a time today
I literally am mad at my son for not making a 12 year old baseball elite team. I pushed him, paid for training etc - but he just does not have the will and ability. I played in college, and I wanted him to follow my path and take it further so I am filled with resentment how phucked up is that?
I love my son, and I am trying to stop the repeating manifestation of what happened with me and my father and baseball. All I can do is talk about and hope tomorrow I will wake up and this shyt will have gone away. No alcohol to cope - just typing and talking as therapy
One minute at a time today
I am sober and have not thought about coping with my mental issues with booze. But let me tell you, actually putting thought and energy into why you feel the way you do is HARD!!!
I literally am mad at my son for not making a 12 year old baseball elite team. I pushed him, paid for training etc - but he just does not have the will and ability. I played in college, and I wanted him to follow my path and take it further so I am filled with resentment how phucked up is that?
I love my son, and I am trying to stop the repeating manifestation of what happened with me and my father and baseball. All I can do is talk about and hope tomorrow I will wake up and this shyt will have gone away. No alcohol to cope - just typing and talking as therapy
One minute at a time today
sounds like your genes are bad or you chose the wrong woman to impregnate
What you think about drinking 3 - 4 shots of vodka everynightNext month, I'll be four years sober. shyt got really bad for me. Every time I stopped drinking I had to go to the hospital. I was having panic attacks which felt like a full body cramp that would seize me up. I was walking like ten miles a day. I could literally see death around the corner. I use to have dreams that dead people I didn't know staring at me in my bed.
I went to rehab. It's saved my life. I went to a kinda grimey state funded rehab with a bunch of winos and dopefiends fresh off the street from the hood, but it's what I needed at the time. Then I went to a halfway house for six months. Literally three people from my halfway house died back to back in like two months after I left. The homies from the halfway house who stayed sober inspired me and are my new day ones homies. I feel like I've know them my whole life. I still go to AA and NA meetings every week. NA is blacker and more hood than AA where I live.But AA has more thick freak pawgs and more parties and events.
Sober life has not been easy. But it's better than going through life drunk. I've had hella different jobs. Had many opportunities I never would have had drinking. But that's not what really matters. Just the little things like waking up every morning and not being hungover. I haven't thrown up in four years, I used to hurl literally everyday. I don't have negative energy coming at me like that anymore. Before I used to beef with hella nikkas over bullshyt and came close to losing my life more than a few times.99 ways to die is the alcoholic lifestyle.
I work at a rehab center today. Easiest job I ever had. Most jobs I ever had required busting your ass with no dignity for little pay. But now I get paid to inspire folks to stay sober.
I know it's hard to get sober, but it's easier to stay sober than it is to get sober. I went to AA meetings for four years before I got sober.
You need to address the root causes of why you drink so much. Me and OP come from Frisco. Where we from, the liquor store is one of the first things you identify as a child. Drinking like a bum seems normal coming from that environment. I remember being so young that I thought the liquor sto down the block on Randolph on Victoria St was the licorice store.Going to rehab, when you're ready might help you address those issues. But if you not done drinking, you not done drinking. Simple as that. When you hit bottom you'll know.
Tru dat my wife never played sports. She is a great lady so I can’t knock her for that.The gene part about me is absolutely true. I resented my dad for the way he taught me baseball and I messed around and repeated that same thing as much as I knew it was wrong
I just couldn’t help that character defect but I’m working on it now. Again, better to talk about how I feel than cope by drinking
Figaro
Superstar
I fukked up last weekend brehs, from thurday to monday i drank for 6-8 hours each day, i pretty much blacked out 
I've stayed in this weekend though, i need to chill brehs
I've stayed in this weekend though, i need to chill brehs
fckyoupayme
All Star
Why were you going so hard?I fukked up last weekend brehs, from thurday to monday i drank for 6-8 hours each day, i pretty much blacked out
I've stayed in this weekend though, i need to chill brehs