The old traps of hedonic adaptation and connoisseurship
The more pleasures you experience, the less pleasurable these experiences get. The more you become engrossed in a certain source of pleasure, the more your taste becomes "refined" and the more complexity you require.
It's why chasing pleasure and being engrossed in hedonism is a dead end. Most ancient religions have that lesson in common. There's a reason for that
You have unleashed a beast upon yourself that cannot be satiated breh. You need to reel it in if you want to have a healthy life and eventually find yourself in a healthy relationship.