just caught up w/ the thread
bruh...im not assuming anything...you said it all.
You are 30, your dad pays your rent, and you work in a yogurt shop....
...everything else you say is an excuse. What kind of people are you fukking w/? Are they at a place in life you want to be? What are your goals? Have you wrote them down?
So, I try to explain myself...make myself heard...and it all comes off as excuses to you..dear lord what's the point if you're going to do this and reduce every response I make as an "excuse"? THE COLI.
I feel sometimes I might as well not explain myself cause I could rationally and explicitly state every minute detail in my life right now and it would still come off as an "excuse". This term is too broad on here.
I don't hang out with "troublemakers" or "riff raff" or "hoodlums" or "thugs" and I come from a relatively cushy upper/middle class background. If you were trying to insinuate this..I don't know. That's on you. Most of my peers are college graduates from high school. Most of my current friends are people from the neighborhood I vibe well with.
As well..why am I almost 30 and living this life? Cause I spent the past decade in college (technically three colleges...cause I hated the first school I went to from 2002-2004, transferred credits from that to community college and did that for a year...transferred to Pitt in 2005...did bad my first year at Pitt...went to community college again for a year to get my credits and GPA back in good standing from 2006-2007...reenrolled back in Pitt in 2007... Took a semester off in fall of 2009....reenrolled back in 2010...had an incident I really don't care to discuss on this board where I had to spend a week in Western Psych and had to withdraw for the semester...then I took the initiative to get myself back in shape (I had to take medication which made me gain 60 lbs)..so I decided to finish up the little credits I had in 2011...signed up for mad PE classes, signed up for yoga...and graduated in 2012 in the best shape of my life.
So there...sorry...but I had to explain myself. It's not that simple.
And yes...I wrote down my plans in my little blue book I carry around with me on the train. I don't feel like getting into it here...cause I respect my privacy and my right to it. I've had the same set of goals for the past decade.
...I just turned 32 a few days ago...
...two years ago up and quit my job because I was sick of this shyt....and made a decision to change...I realized that I had to take responsibility for my own life.
I stopped fukking w/ the people I was with before because they were on some average shyt...
...I started reading and bettering myself....
...I started putting things in action (the most important part).
Your original post is more than a vent...if you are just venting you would have told us what you were doing to get out of it.
What is your plan?
I feel ya...I went through the same thing...as I discussed previously.
I'm trying to save $2500-$5000 for starters.
I'm trying to find a better job.
I'm trying to get start up money for my brand so I can properly promote it cause having a couple of sample pieces aint gonna cut it. I need to get a proper lookbook going...and I can promote it through my blog.
My main goal is having a primary source of income (a nice career that yields a good five figures would be nice) and doing the side hustle...to supplement it.
It sounds like you got caught up in that night life...having fun, friends, and living in NYC....I get it...
...but its not about a damn thing. I bet a lot of your friends are white kids that have fall back plans...your black ass doesnt have that option.
Yea...I did...having fun...getting caught up.
But no. Most of my friends are black and spanish breh. Please stop assuming cause it's really disrespectful. You don't know me or my life breh... You know what they say assumptions...
btw...you sound like you have some low self esteem.
All this "I felt weird in Pittsburgh being black and Nigerian" sounds like some fukk boy shyt.
How are your parents surviving there and able to pay for their adult child?
More assumptions on your part. And how do you have the audacity to try to give me advice and sneak diss me in the same vein?
where they do that at my nikka (actually you called me for no reason whatsoever unprovoked a "fukk boy"..so you ain't my nikka...)
You don't know what it's like in Pittsburgh...especially as a first generation Nigerian/West Indian...it can be polarizing and isolating...
And my parents...what they do for a living...is none of your gotdamn business.
I've already said way too much and I feel I've already breached my privacy.
I'm trying to politic with fam...but honestly...when you do and say stuff like this...it's hard as hell for me to take you seriously. Especially when it comes of as completely disrespectful ad you act like I'm just supposed to accept it. You either have advice...or don't.
I would never give you advice and diss you in the same vein. Cause I show respect for people...
see how that works?
You don't. end of discussion. I appreciate you trying and I appreciate the dialogue...but I don't tolerate nor appreciate that type of shyt. And I don't have to...