NoirDynosaur
Yurrrrrrrrrr
From coli breh to coli breh, you must control your drinking habits or the alcohol will control you, abuse you and turn you into a messI got a family to support. It's not my first time drinking at work. I don't do it often. Only on days where I can't get certain thoughts out my head. It impedes my productivity at work. Alchohol helps me feel nothing. Helps my mind be somewhat blank. I over indulged and had too much. Assistant GM had to drive me home in the middle of my shift. Owner and GM had to let me go. I'm drinking as I write this. I don't drink often. I don't heavy drink I mean unless it's a dark day. I can't predict my emotions. A man who can't control his emotions is no man at all. Alchohol helps me control my emotions. Everyone thinks I'm crazy. They all pity me
Im not sure how to move forward without alchohol. It really helps me. I'm trapped and my life is so fukked up. I'm back to square one. I'm gonna have to take a shyt job somewhere so I can get back on my feet. My wife no longer trusts me. She can't depend on me anymore. She has one foot outside the door. I'm losing my mind and in the process, I'm losing my family.
Your story is relatable because I spent most of my 20's using alcohol as a crutch for my problems. I would go to work drunk, I would go to school drunk, I would go to family events drunk. Why? For The thrill and stimulation to avoid boredom. In fact, I got fired from Walmart because one of my coworkers could smell the potent odor of Whiskey from a mile away. She asked me "Why do you come to work drunk?" I told her "Jack Daniels is my therapy"
I had to cut the hard liquor because I realized I was being very aggressive. I was turning into an emotional wreck. Had to say enough and enough!
When you overdrink, not only are you depressing your brain, you are also destroying your liver, your ability to think clearly, your brain function and neutral activity. Long term, overdrinking can lead to alcohol poisoning or even worse, death!
Alcohol is fun in moderation, but we must be responsible adults and restrain when a sober and focused mind is needed!
Listen, you are the man of your family. You are the head of your household. Your family and your wife is depending on you, don't give up bruh, you got this!
Best of luck