Man I feel like I'm catching a L right now with this chick that's been THROWING it at me for years.
I met this chick a couple of years ago at a party, a friend of my EX so to speak. We exchange numbers and I start talking to her a few months later heavy since she didn't have a cell phone at the time and she lost my number because she had to write it on something. So anyway she was on my dikk heavy. Calling me every day, texting me all the time you know. So I'd invite her to the crib to come chill and after like the third time we made out in the room while watching Netflix. This happens a few more times but everytime I go for it she moves my hand away which I'm guessing is because she's scared or something. She usually would come over right after work so she'd still be dressed up in her work clothes so she wasn't in the best condition but
Fast forward about a year and change later and we spoke from time to time but me losing interest kind of did that. Now recently as of a month or so ago my birthday was coming up so she was pretty much talking to me a lot like before. She'd come over and chill and the first time nothing happened because my EX was at my house downstairs and I guess she was nervous or something.
The next time she came over we watched IP Man 3 and after the movie was done she was in my room just all giddy and shyt but she was on her period I believe because a few days earlier it was my birthday and I was making out with her in my car and when I started feeling on her I felt her pad. I assumed she was on her period still and plus I didn't have any condoms that day so i felt like it wasn't good time to get blue balls.
So anyway while she in my room she stood up and was looking at herself in the mirror and then me sitting on the floor against the bed, she sits down on me missionary style but she isn't all the up on my lap she's like on my knees close to my thigh. She's just playing poking me and play fighting and all I did was play back.
She then gets up and lays on the floor on her back and she's like "Pick me up
". I start trying to but stopped like "
Hah you kind of heavy and it's hard cuz it's cramped right here." Man after that a few minutes later we decide to leave and I take her home. I literally could feel a L forming on my chest.
She still talks to me but it feels less frequent. She did start going back to school but it seems like she don't really text me as much and usually she'd keep asking me if we cool as friends and what do I want from her. I keep telling her let's just be friends and take it from there but then she start playing with me talking bout "Well I'm gonna tell this boy 'Yes'". I'm like yes for what? She's like Yes to be his boyfriend. Now I'm thinking
because she's been constantly asking me if we could ever be bf/gf in the future but I always side step the question.
Usually when I give her that ambiguous answer she'd be like "Yea it might not be good for us, yea I don't care let's just be friends then." answer but it felt more reactionary.
Now the other day I was texting her asking if she was gonna be in my house later that night because I left her at my house with my ex and my cousin(they're all friends.) Btw my EX actually lives in my house currently because she's not with her BF anymore and her pops in another state atm. I live in a three story house so the 2nd floor she sleeps with my aunt and her daughter(my cousin.) Anyway that day I texted her asking if she's still gonna be around when I get back she said she don't know. Then she said something like She don't want to get closer to me anymore". Then i said "Okay now you're talking." and then she said "Yup we just friends."
Now I got mad as hell and didn't really reply back but I thought to myself all the times before I was messing with her we were "friends" but still. I feel like she's starting to lose interest. reason being is that I just don't "feel" her interest is as heavy anymore. I can't tell if it's because of her now taking classes and being busy all day but before she used to go to school and work and she'd still hit me up but lately the past week she hasn't been hitting me up as often. It usually felt like I'd hit her up.
I'm gonna try to go see her tonight but usually she only ends up coming in the car and chills there since she's in front of her house and she has to wake up early for school. I usually drive by her street on my way home so I usually just call her and tell her to come outside and she'd come out and sit in the car with me for a while.
Man I can't even form a coherent post right now my mind is all over the place.
I'm feeling thirsty for some reason and it's weird.
Huh
You Finna come with me
Yea
get outta here
what had happen. She was tryin to start a conversation and for some reason something inside kept telling me to ask for her number. It ain't that serious tho.i just 
, she walks up to my whip with her 2 friends and ask me can I ride her to her car and im like cool 
friends get into my car and one of them is on the phone and I start chopping it up with the redbone and asking her where she is about to go, she told me she was looking for another bar to go to because they wouldn't let her in the one she came from because of how she was dressed, so I told her im about to go meet my patna at a bar down the street and she said is that right 
