I didn't even realize that I was good looking until my sophomore year of high school really. In elementary school I had girls who would have crushes on me but I thought they might have just been acting friendly. In the 6th grade all the girls I was cool with in my homeroom class (which was almost all of them) had crushes on me and I had no clue until the last day of school. I was basically the class clown and never saw any signs, or maybe I thought they were just being friendly. Even after realizing all of these things I still didn't see myself as handsome.
I remember first day of school in my English class my sophomore year of high school. All the girls in the class staring at me, and the ones that sat next to me tried to flirt with me. We did some introduction thing where we said some things at the front of the class, and when I was done I said "uhh that's it" and all the girls start laughing and shyt. I was like
thrown aback by it. I used to go to NYC from Jersey every week for church, and while on the train all these people would be staring at me. I was a freshman or sophomore in high school at the time. Took me a while to understand why, I always thought something was wrong with me like I was in the twilight zone or some shyt
By the time I hit my sophomore/junior year of high school I was no longer oblivious. I was on some pretty boy shyt one summer. Rocking s curls and I had mirrors on my room closets. So whenever I got up from my bed I'd see myself in the mirror and be like
"got damn I'm sexy". I'd get haircuts every month or 3 weeks. I was still crushing on chicks hard and didn't have the confidence to approach and talk to them though
.
Last chick I dated modeled. Now unless she was all done up, she looked like a regular cute chick. Body was regular, didn't have a phat azz or til ol' bitties but she did have a little bubble butg
First day I saw her I was like
"lawd jesus this chick fine and I gotta talk to her!". Now she ain't know that I get a lot of female attention when I'm out and about, and more so when women see you with a cute chick. I can tell she felt annoyed and bothered by it even though all my attention was on her or elsewhere. I paid absolutely no attention to other women. We were on the campus bus one day and some chick sitting across from us was staring at me, smiling and twirling her hair. That shyt almost never happens when I'm by myself.
There were other instances where girls tried to "challenge" her and she actually took it as a challenge
. Started trying to make me jealous by mentioning her guy friends and even introduced me to a nikka clearly in the friendzone. I'm alright if a chick got guy friends, but this dude was clearly in the friend zone
That shyt just made me lose respect for her on some level, all that female attention I was getting wasn't my fault shoot.
She started acting funny, cancelling dates, saying she was too busy so I stopped giving her attention. She blew my shyt up and thought I was smashing other chicks. The face she made when we ran into each other on campus after about 2 weeks of not talking at around 6-7 when she asked me where I just came from
. She asked me in a way assuming that I just came back from blowing some chick's back out and couldn't contemplate that I was messing with other chicks already (I wasn't tho). Oh and I remember her one time asking me if I've ever been to anyone's dorms, thinking I was smashing someone else... even though she never gave me any