You sound like you're trying to justify what you've done just because you put money in some fancy "stocks". Bruh what you did was just straight up gambling and to make it worse your dumbass put your family's livelyhood aside to take this "chance". This is straight up no different than blowing your money at the casino
If you wana be a true investor, you first gotta stack your paper up with regular jobs and only invest with money that you can expend after having enough to sustain a quality life
If you wana be a true investor, you first gotta stack your paper up with regular jobs and only invest with money that you can expend after having enough to sustain a quality life