Iceson Beckford
Rich In Spirit.
Reading this has made me come to the sad conclusion that'll have to find an ugly broad until uni
Have we met?
Damn it has been a while now.
You forgot about me already..
Stop playing
I have and it causes your mood to go down south. Was in a bad time in my life and was smashing ugly chicks because I horny and lonely. Well not only did I feel like more shyt but I felt utterly disgusted with my entire sense of self. No worse feeling than busting a nut and coming to the realization the girl is way under your league and you see a busted up chick. You look in the mirror wondering where everything went wrong and how the set of choices you made led to this very situation.
Haunting shyt. Never again.
I've only fukked one girl that I wasn't happy about after, and it wasn't cause of her looks..
But I have let many beastly women give me head and unfortunately I hated myself afterward.
Man at a weak moment I fukked a beat chick, the head was best I ever had to this day but the post nut shame was REAL. I avoided this thread at first just so I didn't have to feel that shame again.
I was laying there next to her, she looking all satisfied and haggard at the same time making me even more disgusted with myself and I'm tryna make small talk and shyt telling myself I can kick her out in like an hour or so. It got to the point where I just couldn't be next to her so I pretended to be fallin asleep for like five minutes then was like yo I'm tired let me walk you out. I walk her out, trying not to even look at her, knowing she's gonna kiss me at the door and preparing myself for it.
Finally she's gone, I'm in my bedroom like hating myself and for a minute thought I was gonna throw up. Not a great feeling.
Before that time, with the same chick, I had her come over once but as fate would have it she pulled up at the same time as my sister and her friends and I was like fukk, no way I'm letting anyone see me with this chick. I text her like yo you gotta go I'm sick u can't hang.
It was a dark time in my life brehs.