I used to take pride in being considered an "Oreo" and the fact that I "wasn't like other blacks because I talked white." And I loved it when people would ask if I was mixed
I had to work through a lot of internalized racism, and prejudice I had about my own people. Back then I think I did think that being culturally "white" or "other" was better than being "just black".
but I have since ascended from my demonic ways
edit: honestly, Ive never really had a defining "wake up call" moment. I changed because I was unhappy and unsatisfied with myself. Reading books about our history, our people, people like Baldwin & Audre Lorde really opened my eyes. Listening to our older music, and making friends with other black people (both irl and places like black tumblr, twitter, ect) similar to myself is what made me "wake up" so to speak.