@Brandeezy first know your on a different level than your co workers at work. They are just as lost as you are, but they are comfortable in the day to day grind.
You on the other hand, have taken the "red pill" your depression is a symptom of you seeing through the BS. Your life now revolves around getting your shyt together. You too
@Indica.
I don't know what age you are Brandeezy but there's definitely the status quo, those below it, and those who rise above. Your about to be one of the ones that rise above.
Firstly you will need peace of mind, that's going to be your best friend in all this. Having that mental breathing room where you don't get caught up in peoples BS. The gap between you and the world where you observe what's happening before interacting, if you choose to do so at all.
You probably zone out a lot don't you? You feel as if life is going someplace but you don't know how or where? Its NOT the destination, believe me, but the day to day quality of the "search".
This is something I myself need to get on too. Cut the bullshyt, cut the emotion, all of that. Your now a human-animal. All you do is eat, sleep and survive. Your health is your only goal in life, all things will fall into place accordingly to this priority.
ONCE YOU MAKE THIS PRIORITY YOUR NUMBER ONE GOAL, YOU WILL SEE EVERYONE AROUND YOU AS WHAT THEY REALLY ARE.
Most people, go through this and are probably fighting this same battle you are. The difference is you see through the illusion. Welcome to the Flintstone's, you now see life in its simplest terms. Come to terms with your boredom and your need for entertainment. Your probably already past this as IG, Snapchat and fashion bore you.
This is good, your priorities have shifted. Keep track of yourself like you are a business. You Are Your Business.
Think about it like this, corporations are considered people and conduct themselves as such. They live, eat. Breathe, draw energy and give off energy, they work. A human is the same, tho we don't consider ourselves a business. That's just one way to look at it, one frame of mind that puts you behind the CEO desk of your life.
Your main priority is to get your shyt together. Literally everything else in your life now falls into two categories.
Things You Do
Things That Happen Around You
You need to make sure you do As Many Things In A Day As Possible.
Get Momentum. All the hurt and pain from the past, yesterday, til today is Momentum. Positive or negative, were going to use that Momentum in to the next most immediate thing we can think of that will improve your life.
Often times if that's is enough to get you to sit down and meditate and let those thoughts bleed, then great, do that.
But listen to your thoughts as tho they are employees complaining. You ultimately make the final decision. And how do you do that? Through Action!
I don't care if you don't talk all day and get shyt down, that's success.
I'm in the cut right now with no one at my shop talking to me unless its about work. I'm one of the best artists in here, the most focused and the one with the biggest pieces on deck right now. My employers don't have the same mindset as me (most people in society just want to chill, they are tired). So I get passed over for a lot of work, why?
Because I'm driven, ambitious and motivated and tho they will never admit it, at the bottom of the totem pole with the most amount of natural talent. They hate that. They fear that.
Hate and fear will be your common enemies in people, they don't want to see you succeed cause it makes them feel and look lazy.....cause they are.
Society is currently very hedonistic. TV and internet have destroyed people's attention spans. They don't want to do more than they have to, especially if the crowd isn't doing it.
This is where you blow past them, they want to go in circles, you want to fly like an arrow.
Imagine your in a canoe on the river of life. Keep in mind its a canoe, a small personal boat. Be very careful what you carry in this canoe (your being, mind, thoughts, food, a woman, your values, etc)
Then you have your paddle, how you navigate through life, its fought waters, etc.
Then on the river banks there are branches and eyes that watch from the forest. Keep going down the river.
Eventually, hopefully, you will get through the dark, and be more of a participator in life.
However I'll leave you with this. Meditate. Go inside your mind, scrape the corners, understand yourself, make it a myth, a legend or whatever that you relate to. At the end tho, when your done meditating THE HERO GOES BACK TO HIS STORY. Hopefully refreshed.
why didnt you apply to a college and do a btec or something :/
) and it helped me become much more focused and balanced. There is a strange power in knowing you can defend yourself and seriously physically harm someone with just your hands. It has given me a new respect for people, opponents and my own personal growth. It has grounded me and changed my life for the better.
