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Have you gotten diagnosed by a professional?
Essential The Mental Health Thread
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Real talk, i turned off my electronic devices earlier. Back in the days like my senior years of high school, i would turn off my phone because for the most part, nobody would call or text me so i wouldnt leave that shyt on. I actually would get depressed when i would leave my phone on and no one would call. Over time, some of my homies would call and they would get annoyed that i would have my phone off because i wouldnt answer their calls. They would say it would go right to voice mail. Then i would waste time, energy and life on SOHH.
Flash to 2021 and now when i get on this phone shyt, i HATE it. Ive grown a deep dislike for the internet now that almost everyone has a presence on it. Social media ruined shyt but really people ruined it. Now when i get online, im constantly reminded of the shyt that depresses me, triggers me, and all sorts of shyt that i just no longer enjoy it. I used to get on the web to escape life. Nowadays, im constantly being reminded about all the shyt im trying to escape from ruining my mood when im here by myself trying to get myself and emotions right. Everybody is living well and shyt. You know. Ive always been going through it so i dont have the same luxury or thrill or i seem to not be able to reach that point where i can say that i truly feel happy or comfortable or felt that way in a long time. We are talking about well over 25 years ago. I cant fake myself or my life so i often get seen as a weirdo so i pretty much have a fukk you attitude on the low when it comes to people where i expect the worst or am ready for folks to play me out on some bullshyt or be surprised that they actually think im cool but yo... when i say that im tired as in exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally with this shyt and tired of dealing with people in general, tired of feeling this way, tired of not knowing what my purpose in life, i mean that shyt. Seriously. Im also tired of having hope too. That shyt is the worst. If thats one of the things that kills me is that i do get optimistic but my hope gets crushed. shyts been like that since a kid. Im hurting and hiding that shyt and really am not interested in sharing that shyt as i do take that shyt out on folks sometimes on here. I guess im "too real" and you know what, im tired of being misunderstood and the whole shyt and im beyond frustrated with myself too. fukk the web, fukk this smart phone and fukk everybody. I hope the internet dies.
It would shock me if there was anybody that actually understood me because right now, i feel NOBODY DOES. I could be wrong but i feel NOBODY gets me or knows what the fukk im dealing with and i dont know if i could truly be helped or will overcome this shyt to live a normal life. I dont care about money or any of this material shyt. I just want to feel normal or whatever that feels like especially emotionally.
Crazy thing is i actually wrote a poem back in the 7th grade about the same shyt but at the time, i was trying to figure out wtf was wrong with me because thats the way the people around me made me feel where i was literally by myself and no one would wanna associate with me thinking i was off or trying to play them like my crazy ass teacher.
Had to overshare this shyt.
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KingFreeman
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I might sound like a broken record here, but men in general need to understand that porn is highly addictive. It rewires your brain, causes you to bust out all your energy, and is just negative in general. I didn't realize I had an addiction until I tried to quit
Leave that shyt alone. If you don't have any steady ass, just bust off once a week or so to your imagination or some fire erotica. If you are constantly distracted, lethargic, weird around attractive women, and depressed, you might need to reset your dopamine.
Leave that shyt alone. If you don't have any steady ass, just bust off once a week or so to your imagination or some fire erotica. If you are constantly distracted, lethargic, weird around attractive women, and depressed, you might need to reset your dopamine.
Thanks. Hope it helped you some. This shyt is annoying as fukk and wish it on nobody.
Just getting tired of feeling like this. Im in bed right now feeling like an emotional wreck. Dont know how i feel right now but its not good.
Just now i was really thinking.. i would never commit suicide but i dont know what im living for or what my purpose is. I dont have one really. Just a meaningless existence. I have hope or optimism but that shyt is fading the older im getting. Its like damn.... i really dont like being around other people because folks talk about their lives and i have to be reminded about mine and myself. I really avoid convos where i have to detail my life where my issues my come up
I have to say this. I think and strongly believe my father is narcissist. A REAL NARCISSIST as NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER.
seriously, i have to vent because its too much. Aside from this autistic shyt thats been stressing out, theres been several people who have been stressing out and one of them is my father. Hes always been on some bullshyt.
Ive talked about him on SOHH and the bullshyt that hes done and sadly, hes still the same fukked up person. shyt is SAD. Dude is elderly and still has the same sad ass mind pulling the same sad ass shyt. I dont even want to go into detail but i try to avoid my father and strive to not be like him. Thats why ill own up to my shyt and try to be up front and honest as possible so because i dont want to be like him. Ive seen how damaging that shyt has been to my family especially my mother who has had to bore the burnt of his narcissism. Ive literally witnessed the bullshyt he would do to my mother growing up and even to the family and he gave no fukks. Even now, im like
because i expect bullshyt from him.
What makes me sadder is that there are people out there that actually call themselves narcissists and think that shyt is cool not knowing how harmful REAL narcissists actually are. If youre a narcissist or suspect that someone is, GET HELP. If they arent related to you and you see the warning signs, run. These people will bring you down or bring their toxic shyt to you. Trust me. Im looking at my father and dude needs help and hes needed it for the longest. He literally fukked and is fukking his life up because he thinks nothing is wrong with him.
seriously, i have to vent because its too much. Aside from this autistic shyt thats been stressing out, theres been several people who have been stressing out and one of them is my father. Hes always been on some bullshyt.
Ive talked about him on SOHH and the bullshyt that hes done and sadly, hes still the same fukked up person. shyt is SAD. Dude is elderly and still has the same sad ass mind pulling the same sad ass shyt. I dont even want to go into detail but i try to avoid my father and strive to not be like him. Thats why ill own up to my shyt and try to be up front and honest as possible so because i dont want to be like him. Ive seen how damaging that shyt has been to my family especially my mother who has had to bore the burnt of his narcissism. Ive literally witnessed the bullshyt he would do to my mother growing up and even to the family and he gave no fukks. Even now, im like
because i expect bullshyt from him.What makes me sadder is that there are people out there that actually call themselves narcissists and think that shyt is cool not knowing how harmful REAL narcissists actually are. If youre a narcissist or suspect that someone is, GET HELP. If they arent related to you and you see the warning signs, run. These people will bring you down or bring their toxic shyt to you. Trust me. Im looking at my father and dude needs help and hes needed it for the longest. He literally fukked and is fukking his life up because he thinks nothing is wrong with him.
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I have to say this. I think and strongly believe my father is narcissist. A REAL NARCISSIST as NARCISSISTIC PERSONALITY DISORDER.
seriously, i have to vent because its too much. Aside from this autistic shyt thats been stressing out, theres been several people who have been stressing out and one of them is my father. Hes always been on some bullshyt.
Ive talked about him on SOHH and the bullshyt that hes done and sadly, hes still the same fukked up person. shyt is SAD. Dude is elderly and still has the same sad ass mind pulling the same sad ass shyt. I dont even want to go into detail but i try to avoid my father and strive to not be like him. Thats why ill own up to my shyt and try to be up front and honest as possible so because i dont want to be like him. Ive seen how damaging that shyt has been to my family especially my mother who has had to bore the burnt of his narcissism. Ive literally witnessed the bullshyt he would do to my mother growing up and even to the family and he gave no fukks. Even now, im like
What makes me sadder is that there are people out there that actually call themselves narcissists and think that shyt is cool not knowing how harmful REAL narcissists actually are. If youre a narcissist or suspect that someone is, GET HELP. If they arent related to you and you see the warning signs, run. These people will bring you down or bring their toxic shyt to you. Trust me. Im looking at my father and dude needs help and hes needed it for the longest. He literally fukked and is fukking his life up because he thinks nothing is wrong with him.
Bro, speak it! But it’s my mom who is narcissistic. My dad left because of my Mother.
How is your relationship with your mom? Do yall speak to each other? And if yall do, are you guys able to have a convo with each other without it going to the left? Hows your father been doing after divorcing her. Hold your head, fam. People really dont know how difficult and draining that shyt is especially when its a parent.
Its embarrassing really because (dont know if your mom is like this) but its like he will morph into this likeable, life of the party charming guy where hes nice and whatever especially when he meets new people or wants to make an impression. You wouldnt believe me if i told you the person he is and the shyt hes done if you saw him in "prince charming" mode . shyts sick. I even suspect that he might be a sociopath too. I dont feel comfortable him and i worry about my mother's safety around him. My father has always been in my life but if you were to ask me about him and his life, i couldnt tell you shyt because he hasnt told me his history and theres no photos or anybody that can verify shyt. Hes not an honest person and has made up stories and lies so who knows who he is. Ive recently found out that he possibly lied about something in his past he has said. He doesnt even wanna go back to the country hes from and makes up all the excuses to why he cant go back. He also doesnt want to leave the country despite having a passport.
I wish my mom would have divorced my father for her sake. Good for your dad. Did he go to therapy after having to deal with her?
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Mind you im oversharing...
It might be autism why im oversharing and revealing shyt i probably shouldnt say because it could be used against me and who knows whos reading this, might be someone i know but my thing is suffering in silence is not cool. I wouldnt dump this on here if i had a safe space or someone who i felt confident with sharing this to but its not like that...
Hell..even therapists you gotta be careful of. The last one i really went to for like year or so straight up gave up on me. She swore that she forgot but she no showed three times "by accident". Like i couldnt tell she was getting frustrated at me not looking at her and looking at the ground talking to her. I guess not all therapists can tell autistic people but to be fair, this was before i was diagnosed with it. But she wasnt feeling me and i can tell by her attitude. I aint mad at her though. Ive been to enough therapists where ive been played out enough to never want to go to another but i need to see them though. I need help.
It might be autism why im oversharing and revealing shyt i probably shouldnt say because it could be used against me and who knows whos reading this, might be someone i know but my thing is suffering in silence is not cool. I wouldnt dump this on here if i had a safe space or someone who i felt confident with sharing this to but its not like that...
Hell..even therapists you gotta be careful of. The last one i really went to for like year or so straight up gave up on me. She swore that she forgot but she no showed three times "by accident". Like i couldnt tell she was getting frustrated at me not looking at her and looking at the ground talking to her. I guess not all therapists can tell autistic people but to be fair, this was before i was diagnosed with it. But she wasnt feeling me and i can tell by her attitude. I aint mad at her though. Ive been to enough therapists where ive been played out enough to never want to go to another but i need to see them though. I need help.
I was actually diagnosed with mid mood disorder (not full on bi polar) and high anxiety, so in a way I found out what my issue was. However, the therapist told me I needed to get on meds & my family has a history of pills addiction so I am FIRMLY against it. So I've just felt as pretty much my therapist told me that's the only way to get better, if I don't take them this anxiety/depression will just be forever and just be unhappy?
I definitely understand
I tried taking zoloft, but I gave up halfway through
I didn't want to addicted, but also I had a some pride and ego issues were I felt I didn't want medicine to fix me. I want to fix myself.
That's what holding me from seeing a therapist
I just want to throw this out there and hopefully it will help someone.
In the beginning of the year, I was having mental health issues, sadness and periods of depression.
I started exercising and eating properly during the summer.
I am taking about green vegetables, good food with low carbs. If I couldn't exercise at the gym, I would take walks.
Definitely keeping away from foods that have bleached flour.
I would have cravings for popeyes, taco bell and other shyt at the beginning of this year. Now I have none. Someone was saying how popeyes was giving out free sandwiches or some shyt, and i was like
. My girl got popeyes nuggets a couple of weeks ago and I basically ate only 3.
There have been studies that there is a gut brain connection. What you eat affects your mind/mood etc.
Try eating cleanly for a month brehs and see how you feel.
In the beginning of the year, I was having mental health issues, sadness and periods of depression.
I started exercising and eating properly during the summer.
I am taking about green vegetables, good food with low carbs. If I couldn't exercise at the gym, I would take walks.
Definitely keeping away from foods that have bleached flour.
I would have cravings for popeyes, taco bell and other shyt at the beginning of this year. Now I have none. Someone was saying how popeyes was giving out free sandwiches or some shyt, and i was like
. My girl got popeyes nuggets a couple of weeks ago and I basically ate only 3. There have been studies that there is a gut brain connection. What you eat affects your mind/mood etc.
Try eating cleanly for a month brehs and see how you feel.
I might try thisI just want to throw this out there and hopefully it will help someone.
In the beginning of the year, I was having mental health issues, sadness and periods of depression.
I started exercising and eating properly during the summer.
I am taking about green vegetables, good food with low carbs. If I couldn't exercise at the gym, I would take walks.
Definitely keeping away from foods that have bleached flour.
I would have cravings for popeyes, taco bell and other shyt at the beginning of this year. Now I have none. Someone was saying how popeyes was giving out free sandwiches or some shyt, and i was like
There have been studies that there is a gut brain connection. What you eat affects your mind/mood etc.
Try eating cleanly for a month brehs and see how you feel.
What's an example of a typical meal plan on this diet
@semicko82 @Slic Ric and anybody else,
To anybody reading this
IF YOU DO NOT HAVE TO, DO NOT TAKE ANY SSRI MEDS.
shyt will fukk your brain up. Its no joke. Took it for the first 6 months of 2013 after i was diagnosis by a med student/shrink in training with generalized anxiety, ocd, and major depressive disorder. That shyt was
and i was unemployed too. 
honestly, i want to go back to another shrink and get better revaluated and assessedBut that shyt isnt to be fukked with. They say that it does help with cbt (cognitive behavioral therapy) but never did that while i was on the loft. Charity care was what i was using so.. money most definitely determines the care and access to doctors you get.
And coming off the meds, i had horrible "brain zaps".
that shyt happened for months and the side effects happen as soon as you take those pills and even long afterwards. In some peoples cases, the side effects might be permanent.
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