I remember back when Amy (Lita) and I lived together and everything was more or less perfect--from my job to my health to my family and friends. Everyday was fun, easy, and simple. My permanent house was built, I was with the woman I always wanted to be with, I had achieved great career success, and I had a high level of security on several levels. I remember driving around in my car and taking the time to breathe slowly and calmly--being able to "smell the roses", so to say. I remember thinking this particular thought time and time again--"My life is so nice and easy, I love living my life". This feeling that I had was due to me being "at peace with myself". During that time, I had no real problems, no stress, and no drama. My stress levels had to be in the negatives during those days...I was so incredibly "at peace with myself". As we all know (most of us anyway), my feelings of peace and tranquility would end around February of 2005. Amy and I obviously went different directions in life, but there were so many variables involved that I was constantly on an emotional roller coaster. I just keep trying to either make us work, or to understand it was definitely over--I just needed a path to take. It was the first time in my life I was struggling to find closure. There were so many issues I couldn't control, couldn't understand, and I was directionless for the first time in my entire life. I eventually did find closure--but I also found the true meaning of being "at peace with yourself".
And just for the record, Amy and I are friends and fine with one another. Amy Dumas is a wonderful person who, like any of us, has had her ups and downs. I wish the best for her--and I am always glad to know she's healthy and happy. I can't and won't forget the amazing and wonderful experiences we shared together. The last couple of times I've spoken to her, she's been extremely proud and excited about her musical project, The Luchagors. If you have a chance, check out the band.
