When i go back home later, i have to journal write. Having trouble expressing myself and really always had it to tell you the truth. As i said on here over the years, im learning more about myself getting down to the core of my problems and facing them. Its tough. Need to make writing a habit like how i used to but slacked off. That and drawing. I need to sketch and write my pain away. Im overthinking about a lot of things, actually and yet i feel stuck unable to express myself. Theres so much i would like to do but im caught up in surviving. Working, self care
I have enough pain, discomfort and distress going on physically and mentally that its keeping me alert for real.
Im not religious or a theist but that serenity prayer is the truth. Thats where im at. Makes me sad really. Physical therapy yesterday kind of drove that point home. Im flawed and may never be change my issues but i can learn how to accept them and be cool about it. Ive always had self confidence issues which is what ive been working on for the longest. fukk being down and out.
But one thing, i have to say is that when im self isolating, its usually because im not doing well and am trying to nurse myself back to normal.
My lover always tries to cross something off my bucket list every year
I couldn’t wait
