Good date. Lets see where it goes from here.
Things are pretty chill just tryna build for the future you knowYeah, I'm pretty good over here bossman how's things on your end?
YooooTried to talk about fine art with someone knowing it was a bad idea and now I'm mad. HAHAHA. This is why I don't talk to anybody about anything. I hate dropping my guard and being honest. I do it occasionally, and every time I do it I end up pissed off because it wasn't worth it.
I'm realizing I should never drop my guard. Every time I do I lose. When I stay on my shyt I win a lot. People are fukked up. I know the world is fukked up because being honest and vulnerable makes someone food. If people weren't shyt being honest and vulnerable would be okay. To make it in this world you gotta be lying all the time. People have different names for it, but it's lying.
I don't like it doing it but I have to for survival. I realize in this world we get a handful of people we can be honest with. Those are the best people we'll have in our lives. The next time I meet someone like that I'm hanging on and never letting go.
It's nice to be old enough to know better.
It's funny to me that the most valuable trait in a woman is something men don't appreciate until they're old. Trust, being able to trust a woman fully is amazing. To tell her my fears and know they're safe with her is special. To want to start a family with her because she's honest and supportive is the best relationship I've ever been in. I don't care what she looks like TBH, that trust and communication is priceless.
I miss that. Next time I get it I will respect that woman like I should have the first time. I don't have many regrets. I do regret doing some great girls dirty. I feel guilty about that shyt every day. in my defense, I didn't know how good I had it until I met more people and learned people are shyt.
I always tell my little homies to respect the woman they can trust because once she's gone or doesn't trust you there's no getting it back. And it's all your fault. LOL life is something else.