Poh SIti Dawn
Staying Positive, Getting Better Everyday. Holler!
Man lately I've been feeling out of my body, like I don't feel like the person that I was before I left for London.
I feel more at peace, although I was at peace before, there's more of a wiser feeling to me, but I also feel trapped back at my mom's house. I really want to explore the world and go travel and I want to settle in a place and start going to university.
Tomorrow I go back to work and I'm not ready to be bombarded by people. Today when I went to my baby cousins funeral everyone freaked me out, although they didn't know the girl they seemed not displeased and they all asked me how my trip to London was while my uncle & aunt (her grandparents) and her uncle, aunts, dad, and mother (my cousins) seemed so sad and were crying.
I understand that they tend to separate themselves from our family and we didn't even know the little girl due to my cousin and her mother not being together and such but I found it so distasteful and such for them to ask me these questions at the memorial. Many of them seemed stand offish as well while I went and gave my uncle and aunt and cousin a hug.
I just don't know about things, maybe it's because I've been on vacation for a week so my mind has slowed down to observe things since I'm not on the grind but damn I feel lonely
I feel more at peace, although I was at peace before, there's more of a wiser feeling to me, but I also feel trapped back at my mom's house. I really want to explore the world and go travel and I want to settle in a place and start going to university.
Tomorrow I go back to work and I'm not ready to be bombarded by people. Today when I went to my baby cousins funeral everyone freaked me out, although they didn't know the girl they seemed not displeased and they all asked me how my trip to London was while my uncle & aunt (her grandparents) and her uncle, aunts, dad, and mother (my cousins) seemed so sad and were crying.
I understand that they tend to separate themselves from our family and we didn't even know the little girl due to my cousin and her mother not being together and such but I found it so distasteful and such for them to ask me these questions at the memorial. Many of them seemed stand offish as well while I went and gave my uncle and aunt and cousin a hug.
I just don't know about things, maybe it's because I've been on vacation for a week so my mind has slowed down to observe things since I'm not on the grind but damn I feel lonely
