You have quite literally,
missed the entire fukking point to the story, jesus christ.
You start the game as Ellie, the girl who wanted to sacrifice her life for humanity, selfless, wanting meaning to her life and all the death she's experienced. By the time you switch over to Abby, Ellie is damn near completely consumed for her quest for revenge. You start Abby's campaign as someone who was consumed by revenge, achieved revenge but still has PTSD, still has nightmares.
She starts doing shyt that isn't self serving(like revenge) in attempt to redeem what little humanity she believes she has left through helping Yara and Lev, enemies that should not have spared her life. Only after getting those supplies for Yara and going through that adventure with lev, do the nightmares stop and then she comes to find out that while that whole journey was taking place, Ellie has murdered all of her friends. She's once again consumed by revenge, almost achieves it yet again but decides that revenge isn't worth losing Lev, the only one she has left and spares Ellie.
Ellie after killing a pregnant woman, begrudgingly agrees to leave Seattle in order to get Dina home due to her pregnancy. Abby shows up, kills Jessie and disables Tommy, and then gets spared by her.
Ellie on the farm doesn't even want to
think about Joel. In her journal, she says she's jealous that Dina can talk about Jesse so much, Dina suggests she try to talk about the good times with Joel, that it might help with her issues. Ellie doesn't even want to try, likens the memories to food poisoning.
At the end, Ellie goes to the boat, seemingly alright with not killing Abby after seeing her destitute state, but sees an image of a dead Joel, which once again triggers her desire for revenge. When she's about to kill Abby, an image of an alive Joel comes to mind. She spares Abby.
The story is not about revenge or forgiveness,or about
making you feel bad but wanting to dealing with and moving on from the trauma caused by the cycle of violence.
If Ellie ended up killing Abby, then the story would been a 100% waste of fukking time.
At the very end, Ellie can't even play the guitar properly, her worst fears confirmed, she's alone, Dina has left her, she has no revenge and she has no one to blame but herself. She recalls her very last conversation with Joel. A scene with Joel where she
literally states that she wants to forgive Joel from the trauma his lie cause her. She chooses to leave Joel's guitar behind and walks away. She's decided to
move the fukk on.
You can not like the story, but the shyt I'm reading online isn't criticism of the story, it's people who can't even comprehend the shyt
It's not even that deep, they hit you over the head with the fukking themes and yall still don't understand
I can't wait for a few months to pass so that the merits/faults of the narrative can actually be coherently discussed.