This was my main girl for the past 3 years. She rode for a nikka heavy back when i was dropping french fries. Cooked, cleaned, had no problems paying for meals, (would insist on at least tipping if i paid). Became a nikkas backbone and i made her the gf.
Then these lil situations started to come up and in hindsight i didnt handle them right. She went to the club one night and gave some dude her number. She told me about the next day and im looking like
i told her i wasnt cool with that shyt and she said it wouldnt happen again. I started to not trust her, i had that feeling we all get when something isnt right. Go thru her phone one night (
) and seen her texts with some dude, we argue bout the shyt and break up.
For the next year or so we are on/off with each other. I was goin to her spot and still hitting, then we would argue not speak...rinse and repeat. Then one day we meet up after maybe 2 months of not speaking and she says she wants to get back together. Im like
im good on that. So we dont get back together but we start back kicking it and shyt. To make a long story short i fell back in love with her, told her how i felt and she hit me with "im not ready for a relationship" maybe 3 or 4 days later i see some pics on with her and some nikka all hugged up. Then shes like "yea im involved with someone
"it just happened" "i still wanna be friends" just felt my soul burning
But i fukked up because i was catering to her... Somewhere down the line i just let her use me, she called me about issues with other nikkas, stayed at my crib and we wernt fukking. I KNOWINGLY played the backup boyfriend and it disgusts me. Its over now but i just feel like a bytch about the entire situation, i have never let a chick play me like that before.