So sometimes I fall back into loneliness thinking about what transpired between my ex and I. Her violent display of anger still lingers in the back of my mind. How she screamed uncontrollably, throwing stuff, etc. It still saddens me. More often than not though having been two months removed from the relationship I feel okay. Her birthday is in a few days so I wonder how she's doing.
On a lighter note - I have been on/off on Hinge and had a funny interaction with a woman I went on one date in 2015 recently "liked" me. She was very short with me back during that date but I was VERY skinny back then and was not the man I was back then. I will say though I met her a few days after I did a MMA fight so I was extra lean then.
Things more or less fizzled out with that interaction, but she worked at the same company I did and we knew of each other by a few degrees of separation. She still had Facebook but I recall one time back when I was posting more controversial stuff in 2017 she took issue to something I said and I accidentally bumped into her
She was always vocal about politics, women's rights, women in tech, etc.
Fast forward 2022 Hinge says that me and this woman are "Most Compatible"
Given the brief history I had with her and knowing her through people I went "nah" and swiped left.
Hours later she likes a video of one of my gym feats with enthusiasm.
Now it's 2022 and I will say that she is still fine as hell, but still illustrates a LOT of insecurities she once did i.e. flaunting her body, bunch of selfies, glossy pictures, and after lurking a bit it seems still social media driven. Her political affiliation now is "Moderate" and she's "Spiritual"
Those personality traits in my mind make me think she's definitely NOT wife material, but I haven't fukked a woman since my break up by choice. Part of me wants to just see where it goes and see if I can fukk the shyt out her out of spite. That may not be good for my soul though so I may just leave it be