I had a long ass reply typed up...lost it
I'll try to sum it up though, and this is without feeding off of what has gone on in the thread since the first couple days.
Basically as someone who's in your age range, while I wouldn't draw a direct connection between Mike Brown, police brutality and Hip Hop I do feel like for you, and maybe some other people that this serves as one of those sobering moments in regards to your relationship with Hip Hop. Hip hop is the mirror, always will be, and at this point in time this is what your reflection is showing you.
I have long since had that moment, so it didn't connect with me in that sense, but I understand where your head is/was at. On a personal note (I touched on this in my original reply) we all grew up listening to negative shyt, a lot of just sounded like conversation to me because I grew up in an environment of violence and crime away from music, yet there are plenty of us that know how to set the music down, but what about those who can't?
I got a younger cousin that I took guardianship of who's grown but mentally about 8 or 9 years old due to his condition. He's not one of those people who CAN sit the music down, dealing with him has been another one of those moments for me where I have had to contemplate the balance point of the NECESSITY, as a spiritualist that I see for the expression and acknowledgement of negative energy and aspects of self in a safe way and the effects of that expression on the impressionable. There is middle ground, there is an internal debate that you may not have until you are pulled outside of your personal circumstances.
I find myself wanting to censor what this technically grown man listens to because I can see the negative effects in real time because his mind is so wide open to suggestion. He asks me to get music for him, I tell him that being a grown up which is what i'm trying to teach him how to do, is about choices. If you get a hold of negative influences on your own, that's your will...but as a mentor I refuse to hand you a loaded gun, you want me to load up your IPOD with music it will be something I feel comfortable with you repeating or reenacting.
You wanna be like Boosie huh? Boosie just got out of prison my nikka...again...the mirror is being held up for me. I'm like what do I gotta do to get you to hear what I'M SAYING to you, put it to a beat? That is the power (not the obligation) of the MC.
The problem is capitalist, consumer culture. Hip Hop is a
creative force yet the majority of the rap music being sold is being made for consumption and not creations sake.