@Phoenix Reborn being happy and positive gets me no where and I doubt being a bytch will either. It's not self pity, just stating facts.
I need a drink
I guess I dont understand what your upset about really.
You don't have to be all fake happy and positive but, THE woe is me attitude and what comes off as self pity to others fosters negativity. People come here to cry and moan about life all the time, but usually there is up and down swings with you it always seems to be a down swing.
I think you just want want what everyone else "seems" to have here (which is nothing honestly outside of the handful of true friendships and relationships) and you beat yourself over not fitting in. Not fitting in here is far from a bad thing.