You have to stop with the self pity and woe is me.
I don't know if its just something you do online or what but its not something that men or women really want around them when they have there own demons to fight.
I've never seen you post anything positive or cheery, think about that. You go like 4k post and if you look through them how many of them are positive?
I think you have good intentions, but its buried under everything else you put on display 1st.
Why would anyone look to message, check or get to know you when you only provide negativity?
Not saying your on the coli to make friends, but it seems to be somewhat important to you. If so, you need to show more of your happiness and chill side.