No, no, no let her do her thing. I saw the error in my ways which is why I stopped responding to her and I'm not going to respond to her regardless of what she says. I realised I was being insensitive. Like I can't relate to her necessarily because I lead a meaningful and fulfilling life but like I said I'm not a purveyor of negative energy so I've tried to look at things from her perspective and I see why she lashed out at me and she's been lashing out at people and spamming this thread.
So picture this. Imagine dedicating your whole life to something to the point where you spend a seemingly endless amount of time on it furiously typing out titangraphs that you edit continuously with empty quotes from years ago, gifs, music videos something that you take genuine pride in and your reward for doing so is for people to believe that your entire life is a fabrication and to tell you that you're a worthless piece of shyt not once but twice and at record breaking margins. That's pain right there. Real pain.
The thing is people come to places like this as a means of engaging with people and some even use it as a means of escapism and we don't offer Nicole that escapism, we just add to her trauma. If she is who she says she is, and I choose to believe that she is then we are forcing her to relive her traumatic life and that explains a lot of her behaviour. Like she was lonely this one time and came to the Coli to ask about how she could procure some dikk in exchange for money and Coli posters made fun of her. In a moment of vulnerability we let her down. That's pain.
She says she's a single mother so that means that after men used her for her body they discarded her and left her with the responsibilities. That's traumatic, to give yourself to someone like that only for them to gain post-nut clarity and think that you're a worthless piece of shyt and they can definitely do better. The parallels between her personal and professional life (the Coli) are staggering and just too painful for me to continue ruminating on. What I will say is that I understand why she holds on to the 3 daps per post that she gets (after putting in all that effort and the insane volume she posts at) and shows them off so proudly in this thread because those internet daps are probably the closest thing she gets to a hug. That's pain.
It also explains why an educated professional like her would want to associate with the neighbourhood riff raff and hooligans who spend their time thinking of new ways of contorting their fingers in between bouts of self-destructive behaviour. She's a Blood because they're the only ones who'd accept her
and people here make fun of that. shyt I'd be showing off my affiliation too if they were all I had.
The Coli needs to do better, we're just perpetuating the cycle of rejection that typifies her life and we're failing to give her a space where she could come in and not be told that she's a worthless piece of shyt. It's hard enough being a gang banging legal professional raising children by yourself now you have to come in and watch people run up the score on you being the worst person around. That's a kick in the teeth. No wonder she's like this.
Since my last post in this thread I've played with my son and had him fall asleep on my chest as I sat back and I've watched the Manchester and Madrid derbies on TV whilst getting a few daps here and there for posts in this thread. In that time other posters have come in and poked fun at her lead in the WOAT race and she's gotten into yet another argument with another poster all while getting no daps for her diatribe (the positive reinforcement that she craves so deeply). If I could give her just a slice of the peace I enjoy I would but I can't but what I can do is try to make this a more peaceful place for her.
So I say we do the honourable thing, stand on the right side of history and suspend this year's WOAT thread. It's the right thing to do
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If you click on that post some guy was talking about "the plane ride from hell" with a bunch of pro wrestlers and apparently one of the guys on the plane shoved a dildo up his ass during that plane ride.
