Half this board has it ...
That just comes as a side effect of living in a white supremacist/racist society...
A lot of people have internalized self-hate/anti-blackness/negrophobia and maybe it took them a while for them to overcome it and finally confront it.
These ideas are present in so many aspects of society...the idea that blackness is to be hated and feared...that blackness is ugly and undesirable. That blackness just automatically translates to inability and inferiority. That blackness is to be destroyed and not nurtured.