He needs a transplant and is now on the waiting list. I don't feel bad because he was an a$$hole to me over the phone last night. Our relationship is awful, I thought after being there for him most of December and January. shyt would change.
Guess not. A miracle would be nice but I'm not that delusional. I hope no one is stupid enough to break the news to Grandma. I sure won't.
This is terrible timing, last night I decided I'm done with him. Would just keep shyt at a minimum. The Stockholm syndrome would end I thought. Gone have to see him tomorrow morning with others. Only showing up because my family won't shut the fukk up if I don't and I don't want my absence to make his health worse.
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Guess not. A miracle would be nice but I'm not that delusional. I hope no one is stupid enough to break the news to Grandma. I sure won't.
This is terrible timing, last night I decided I'm done with him. Would just keep shyt at a minimum. The Stockholm syndrome would end I thought. Gone have to see him tomorrow morning with others. Only showing up because my family won't shut the fukk up if I don't and I don't want my absence to make his health worse.
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Just came thru to see him at the hospital. I was honest and polite. His crying juelzing self telling me he ain't disrespect me how am I going to say that. Told him I can control my actions and words but not how I feel. Let him know this from years. I don't choose to feel how I feel. I called him out how I tried to meet him halfway on the phone the night before and what he said to me.
He said that how he is. I said that's an excuse I see how you are with friends and coworkers. He said he'll try to change.
I'm not buying it. He big mad on the phone and when relatively healthy in person. Now all sick, too weak to be dismissive. He'll get a little more strength again and be on the same bullshyt again.
I see only therapy will help me.
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