"I live a sick double life and if anyone who knows me found out, they would disown me. I let a rich older white man do piss and shyt play with me weekly and in exchange, he gives me $2500 a week. I've used the money to better myself and pay down my student loans but I feel so used and dirty and sick. I am literally his human toilet. He relieves himself in my mouth (pisses in my mouth then takes a dump in my mouth) and I have to hold it in for one minute and then 'wipe' him clean with my tongue. After he's satisfied then I take a shower, rinse my mouth out with disinfectant mouthwash and leave with my cash. I don't know how much more I can take though."
10990 I guess I'll make my guilty confession too. I too am only attracted to white men. Its always been this way. I literally remember my preschool crush being white as hell with super blonde hair and blue eyes. I felt weird about it for a while because I didn't fit in with the stereotypes about IR dating in fact I don't even want to be in an ir relationship that's why I'm turning white before next year. If it wasn't possible I would just stay unmarried maybe have a secret relationship or something.
I don't want drama or to be a burden to my spouse or deal with comments and stares. Also while I don't have any general problems with white girls, they do throw hella shade when you've with a white male or have the attention of one and if course society would never believe something like that but yeah if you're decent looking and smart, expect microaggressions simply for breathing. shyt gets tiring.
Trust me I love and support black people but if even if I tried to have a romantic relationship with a black man I couldn't do it. It would literally be as hard as trying to romantically love s woman, it just would not work.
This is why I cringe and/or laugh at the IR blogs run bh black women. They care far too much about what black men think or do to not be into them. They sound more like they're just upset at their options and if they could get a Denzel or whatever they would. This is why I try to censor my discussion of men on black blogs so as to not expose the fact that I'm only attracted to white guys even on my most pro black days. I refuse to be dragged lol.
Only kind of black guy I've been with is mixed and I only let him finger me. He is a quality guy and whoever ends up with him is blessed beyond belief. He might be bi but thats a discussion for another day.
So yeah, I'm converting to white . I just want a peaceful respectful life with a great guy that I'm attracted to. I have a lot of great qualities but with high quality white guys its not that they're not attracted to great black women its that they're embarrassed and dont want the extra hassle of an IR relationship."
If there are Black women like this in the community, this is scary....
These two need to be banished to Hiroshima.....