He and I exchanged several texts yesterday afternoon and it didn't go well. I wasnt aggressive or hostile, I just said I'd like to meet him if he's around my kids. He basically responded with, to summarize, he didn't want to meet me, he doesn't owe me anything, I'm a stranger to him, lose his number, I cant control shyt he does...
So of course I felt his response was distasteful and completely disrespectful. I didn't curse him or threaten him but I told him I look forward to meeting him and I hope he keeps the same energy in person...
Maybe reaching out was a poor idea, maybe it wasn't. I'm not reaching out again so I'm good on that and I'm not talking to The Ex about him (they were obviously together because she sent me a text while he and I were chatting saying to leave him alone, he ain't concerned with meeting me, etc). I ignored her texts, it wasn't about the kids and I didn't respond...
I'm healing fam, I'm trying to and I want to. So there is no confusion, this is not about her having a new partner, he tried saying that shyt and I redirected him quick, it's about the boundaries and respecting my time with my children. If I'm on the phone with my girls, especially since you're around them alot, you don't get to interrupt my conversation by taking one of them from my conversation. Come on, that isn't even respectable...
I'm trying to throw my energy into everything else, and I believe all of this will make me a much better man in the future. For myself, my daughters, and whoever's daughter I end up with. I believe that, and I know I can only control my time with my daughters. My uncle yesterday told me to start talking to my oldest about sexual and physical abuse and just cherish the time I'm with them, and pray they are protected and being treated right when I'm not. And that feeling of not being able to protect them I know is inevitable but the powerlessness doesn't feel any better...
I couldn't take the case to trial because if I did, I was gonna be rearrested, charged habitually, and given about a quarter million bond. Trial wouldnt have been until mid-to-late 2021, so I'd be sitting in jail the next 12-18 months which is a huge step backwards from being able to see my girls now...