I hate being alive

[Afro]

Also, I appreciate the replies. I'm not about to commit that. Just an overwhelming apathy that has manifested into a hatred for existence. Yeah, it'll pass. Sadly, I've been through this many times before.

I go through a similar phase every few weeks. I'm tried of going through them though, because if it catches me at the wrong time, I'm extremely depressed for months.

End up wasting time wallowing in self-pity.

I tend to feel this way as well from time to time. Wondering how life would be for me, if i went left instead of right . Wondering would i be better off than i am now. It always having me feeling like I'm 10 years behind where i should be and that give me a sense of desperation when trying to get where i want to be.

I always look around and feel like I'm behind everyone else. Folks tell me "I'm still young" when people my age have graduated College, have kids and a career by now

I work the hardest for myself with I feel desperate. That is the ONLY time I really work on myself and resent myself for that too. Any other time I get complacent, which leads me to hate myself even more

Yeah, I'm also a recluse. That's probably part of the issue. All I do is work.

I legit go to work, home, and work again. And home is where my second job of taking care of my mom is.

Who is losing her memory from seizures and has been extremely depressed for all her life.

We need just need a break from it all

 

[Afro]

Actually ta majority of posters on these types of sites are lonely cats who are socially awkward. You all are basically saying you want or have wanted to commit suicide but your too scared to do it based on several reasons, but mostly the one that most of you never admit is you don't want to die, you just want better lives. Which is pretty much something a majority of people in the world wish. The person you think has the best life in the world is the one that could be suffering more then you could ever imagine.

Prime example. I live in a culdesac. Nice neighborhood. Mostly black, but towards the end of the block there is a white family with 2 little girls, and they are pretty much the nuclear family. I mean the have the nicest house on the block by far, nice cars out front, they walk alot around the neighborhood, 2 kids with the dog type shyt you know. Now because a majority of the block are black people we all pretty much kick it together and what not, but we all kind of see the family with the big ass house down the street you know. Its no hate or anything, but there is kind of an underlying thing that we know these fukkers are super paid.

Anyway, my wife is out talking to our next door neighbor last week and he dropped that the perfect family that we thought had it together, the fukking mother died of a meth over dose the day before. The house belonged to her parents and the kids we see are actually their grand kids. The mother was in and out of the kids lives from time to time and the time we would see them walking it was actually the girl and her father.

Long story short the grandparents came home to find their daughter over dosed dead while her kids were in the other room.

Moral of the story,......

Irony is, I hated that song when I first heard it.

"fukk you man, you're living a life most of us will never see" is exactly how I felt.

Now I just nod silently to it

 

[NoChillJones]

Irony is, I hated that song when I first heard it.

"fukk you man, you're living a life most of us will never see" is exactly how I felt.

Now I just nod silently to it

Glad you got the point of the song. Be happy with what you have as everything that glitters ain't gold and most people are full of shyt. Life will never be perfect. But it will ALWAYS get better, you just have to be strong enough to get to that point. And never stop striving to make that change happen.

 

[Neuromancer]

@Rarely-Wrong Liggins become the overman

 

[Save $ not Hoes]

I think every single one of you brehs are suffering from poverty consciousness. also dealing with the shift from 3d to 4d. not surprisedat all to be honest.

 

[Mr. Manhattan]

life is beautiful man, stop this nonsense go travel somewhere and relax your mind and body

 

[International Playa]

Do the little things you enjoy when you feel down.

Eat your fav meal, no mattet how many calories is has.
Listen to your fav song.
Play your fav game.
Watch you fav movie.
Watch your fav comedian.


Quit porn, interact with females in real life, no matter how ugly a female is, get a female companion. Every man needs a female

 

[Clayton Endicott]

It's never enjoyable per se. There are good and bad spirits. When you enter the aether you will encounter whatever is there to greet you. I'm trying to master the OBE but I'v only done it once and as I said, I had help. She was celebrating getting her wings.

Might not be the best idea to go without a guide.

Whatever I run into is benevolent like a motherfukker . I wind up freaking out and force myself to wake up. Takes a lot of effort, but when I do I'm . Sometimes I want to ride it out to see what will happen but that shyt is too terrifying

 

[Hoodoo Child]

Listen to some Blues music

 

[GPBear]

The existential loss of meaning in life has been an ongoing problem that humans have failed to accept/address.

We'd rather distract ourselves with technology/drugs than have any deep conversations.

 

[Flywin Lannister]

Thread useless if u not gonna commit that

How would OP let us know they did?


He’d have to film his death.

And then...

Upload it to youTube
Open The Coli
Click on Just Bugging Out
Click New Thread
Create a post that includes copy pasting the YouTube link in Media
And press Create Thread

All in the afterlife

 

[Flywin Lannister]

The existential loss of meaning in life has been an ongoing problem that humans have failed to accept/address.

We'd rather distract ourselves with technology/drugs than have any deep conversations.

 

[Raava]

Sorry for worrying you. I was working on a claim. This is also a problem; a miserable person listening to the misery of others.

*plays world's smallest xylophone*

:-/

It’s ok.

Like I tell you, you need to find that release. Especially taking in all the negativity and emotions of others

And, answer.

 

[Pinyapplesuckas]

Logic wants you to be alive

 

[Cool DOC]